I think I lost the passion so there's really nothing left...

[couldhavebeen]

there's nothing left to live for

I lost the passion to live, I lost the passion to die. I really don't feel anything. I know if I smoke a joint I'll feel better for an hour or with luck two... but I know it'll pass just like everything else...

you try and try to hold on but eventually you see it slipping through your fingers and the worst part is you don't care you know it's happening... but you don't care

i'm crashing and I don't care

you know,

I feel like I missed out, I used to be happy when I was a child... where did it go? when did I become this thing I am now...

where is the time I played and had fun ... now I do drugs listen to pink floyd and act like I know what's happening. I see my friends' lies I know they're scared too or perhaps scared isn't the word. They just don't know either we pretend to be cool but we're dirt. We're not even dirt

we're plane which is nice but I lost the passion. I can't enjoy life like when I was a child... I paint, I write poetry and music... I had a healthy relationship but screwed it up just to see how it'd feel to be broken...

I don't sleep as much as I used to, I'm happy (figure of speech) if I can sleep 5 hours a night.

I drained everything on my quest to happiness now there's nothing left... I tried to keep everyone happy eventhough that meant I had to suffer but now there's no one to pick me up... I feel like I keep giving but nobody gives something back...

I'm lost, I have lost the passion and I want to search it but it's just useless or at least that's how I feel because I have lost it before and I found it again but I just can't keep my hands on it for long...

life drains me just as much as I drain life

I'm tired of life but I want to live again...

 

[Colin]

Perhaps I am in a similar state of mind. A doctor told me that loss of zest for life is a sign of depression, I'm not sure if I agree.

 

[Damien]

Re-read what you wrote. Then say "you can only go so low before things start looking up"

Im sitting here reading or post and you nutted out everything you feel youve done wrong, and that you want to make a change. Thats a good thing. Pick one thing you like doing. Dont say "i dont have anything"... you mentioned music, poetry etc.

Im a musician too. Play bass. Been in death metal bands for years and i tell ya.... you end up happy after 3 hours of screaming hate.

Focus on something, find people who share common interests. Like myself on bass websites and forums. Forums are great, we all have something to offer each other. I help out in the technical sense as im an electronics technician. So people ask me questions about fixing musical gear and guitars. There is no better feeling knowing you helped someone out of a bind.

Help yourself.

Damien

 

[GettingThere]

Two words..antidepressant medication.

Its amazing how different life looks when the gloom of depression is lifted even if only partially lifted.

 

[FruitLooPs]

smoking dope and listening to PF are like...porn to depression..youre just encouraging it and wallowing in it. being fuct in the head isnt a game. get yourself some caffiene and get your arse outside in the sunshine. quit playing that fucking music its pseudo-crazy.

Haha porn to depression, I like that. But its so true, its a vicious cycle though because depressing music and things that make you sad appeal so much more when you're down - its like you relate to it so you listen/smoke it even though it makes you worse not better... :evil:

Kinda like chocolate, why is all the bad stuff so good :wink:

 

[couldhavebeen]

Re-read what you wrote. Then say "you can only go so low before things start looking up"

Im sitting here reading or post and you nutted out everything you feel youve done wrong, and that you want to make a change. Thats a good thing. Pick one thing you like doing. Dont say "i dont have anything"... you mentioned music, poetry etc.

Im a musician too. Play bass. Been in death metal bands for years and i tell ya.... you end up happy after 3 hours of screaming hate.

Focus on something, find people who share common interests. Like myself on bass websites and forums. Forums are great, we all have something to offer each other. I help out in the technical sense as im an electronics technician. So people ask me questions about fixing musical gear and guitars. There is no better feeling knowing you helped someone out of a bind.

Help yourself.

Damien

Bit of a sad way to make you feel better right?

"There is no better feeling knowing you helped someone out of a bind. "

sounds like standard bullshit, I helped in as a volunteer in a clinic helped the homeless ...

at some point you realize your happiness is fake, i still help somedays but it just doesn't bring me happiness anymore but I might as while be spending my life doing something usefull for others than doing nothing...

 

[couldhavebeen]

smoking dope and listening to PF are like...porn to depression..youre just encouraging it and wallowing in it. being fuct in the head isnt a game. get yourself some caffiene and get your arse outside in the sunshine. quit playing that fucking music its pseudo-crazy.

I go out and have a blast with my friends, I play football, I'm on the swimteam and I have played in a band... I play happy music too

but at the end of the day, what does it mean?

I played a great riff, sang a beautiful song to my little sister so she would sleep good and feel loved, threw a beautiful pass and I beat my personal record...

I can keep striving and I can beat my personal records but it fades... as do I... I may be a hero today but'who really gives a damn?

 

[couldhavebeen]

I'm sorry to bore you with my problem I realize I do not belong here...

You have real problem. I don't get anxious when I have to meet new people, I play football, I'm on the swimteam and I play in a band, I work in the free clinic...

I wish I could be shy so I avoid people as much as I can...

once again I would like to apologize, I don't belong here...

My problem has nothing to do with yours...

please forgive me...

 

[Hamble]

:roll:

 

[Colin]

Don't worry about posting, I think many of us can relate to your problems too. I have lost passion for life too, I just don't know if it can ever come back again.

 

[couldhavebeen]

My name is Colin too

 

[Damien]

I can see how my answer could be standard bullshit, but its not the same as helping the hopeless. Sheesh thatd be depressing, people who are homeless for one reason or another and all you "help" them with is sandwhiches. What i am talking about is using what YOU KNOW to help someone. like i said, im an electronics tech.

So when someone says "i have a gig in 3 hours and my bass is humming like crazy! what do i do!" I give them the fix via email or the forum i with. They message me back the next day with a big big thankyou. Now if you get 10 or 12 emails from different people saying "hey man you know your shit, thanks a heap you not only saved me bucks but my amp sounds great!".... you cant tell me youd start to feel pretty good about yourself eh? Better than volunteering for depressed smelly homeless people.

Damien

 

[Yossarian]

I can see how my answer could be standard bullshit, but its not the same as helping the hopeless.

Yup, it sure is the standard, ignorant, bullshit attitude towards the homless. Shame, as doing something where you are valued and appreciated is great advice.

Obviously helping people to stay warm so they don't freeze to death, feeding them so they don't starve to death. Offering respite from a world which sees them as subhuman, worthless scum and if only for a moment treat them as a real, valid human being. Perhaps maybe even finding some sort of accomodation for them, getting them a GP or mental health worker. Helping them to get their feet back on the ground and back into society isn't as important as fixing someones bass but you'll be surprised how some people do find it rewarding.

As for getting thanks, well I can't talk for a large and diverse group of people but I know I was very grateful for the help I received. Of course it's not as valuable as the appreciation of someone with a postcode but it is there.

As for the depressed smelly people, here a few statistics to maybe highlight the kind of people you are talking about, not that they matter:

86 per cent of young homeless people are forced to leave home rather than choose to (SEU, July 1998)

45 per cent of young homeless people have experienced violence in the
family home on more than one occasion (Safe in the City, Taking Risks, 1999)

One third of young homeless people have attempted suicide – a fifth
within the past year (Craig T. et al, Off to a Bad Start, 1996)

63 per cent of women aged 30-49 cite domestic violence as the key reason for their homelessness (Crisis, Out of Sight, Out of Mind? – The Experience of Homeless Women, 1999)

40 per cent of young women who become homeless have experienced
sexual abuse in childhood or adolescence (SEU, 1998)

85% of homeless people (in a survey of 150 interviews across the UK) have been in paid employment in the past. 47% possess qualifications; of those 48% have GCSEs, 16% have A levels, 15% have a degree and 13% have professional qualifications (Crisis, 2002)

Nearly two in three (60 per cent) of people sleeping rough have mental
health problems (OPCS, The Prevalence of Psychiatric Morbidity among
Homeless Adults, 1996)

Nearly every other rough sleeper (45%) has been assaulted at least once.
Over half of these assaults (53%) are committed by members of the public(IPPR/Crisis, Unsafe Streets, 1999)

More than one in three (35%) have been wounded at least once. Nearly two in three of these woundings (63%) are committed by members of the public(IPPR/Crisis, Unsafe Streets, 1999)

Overall, rough sleepers appear to be up to 15 times more likely to experience assault than the general population and 35 times more likely to be a victim of wounding (IPPR/Crisis, Unsafe Streets, 1999)

78 per cent of rough sleepers have been victims of crime at least once
during their last period of sleeping rough (IPPR/Crisis, Unsafe Streets, 1999).

People who sleep rough are 35 times more likely to commit suicide than the general population (Crisis, Still Dying for a Home, 1996)

Rough sleepers have an average life expectancy of 42 years, compared
with the national average of 74 for men and 79 for women (Crisis, Still
Dying for a Home, 1996).

___________________
This is the car at the edge of the road,
There's nothing disturbed, all the windows are closed,
I guess you were right, when we talked in the heat,
There's no room for the weak,
No room for the weak.

Day of the Lords, Joy Division

 

[couldhavebeen]

I can see how my answer could be standard bullshit, but its not the same as helping the hopeless. Sheesh thatd be depressing, people who are homeless for one reason or another and all you "help" them with is sandwhiches. What i am talking about is using what YOU KNOW to help someone. like i said, im an electronics tech.

So when someone says "i have a gig in 3 hours and my bass is humming like crazy! what do i do!" I give them the fix via email or the forum i with. They message me back the next day with a big big thankyou. Now if you get 10 or 12 emails from different people saying "hey man you know your shit, thanks a heap you not only saved me bucks but my amp sounds great!".... you cant tell me youd start to feel pretty good about yourself eh? Better than volunteering for depressed smelly homeless people.

Damien

You can't teach people how to throw a football over the internet, you can't learn people how to swim over the internet either...

look at the post by Yossarian, I don't need a thank you, I just like to see these people in a bed, have some clothes and shoes and have a meal...

Masterpiece2, does medication help? And how long do you have to take it?
I have read almost everything written about Layne Staley and met his mother Nancy last year...
About your problem, I don't have it, if you think I can help you you may ask me stuff. I deal with a lot of people daily...

 

[couldhavebeen]

great, they have closed the pool because it needs to be 'safer'...

 

[IcanDoIt]

Re: I think I lost the passion so there's really nothing lef

there's nothing left to live for

I lost the passion to live, I lost the passion to die. I really don't feel anything. I know if I smoke a joint I'll feel better for an hour or with luck two... but I know it'll pass just like everything else...

you try and try to hold on but eventually you see it slipping through your fingers and the worst part is you don't care you know it's happening... but you don't care

i'm crashing and I don't care

you know,

I feel like I missed out, I used to be happy when I was a child... where did it go? when did I become this thing I am now...

where is the time I played and had fun ... now I do drugs listen to pink floyd and act like I know what's happening. I see my friends' lies I know they're scared too or perhaps scared isn't the word. They just don't know either we pretend to be cool but we're dirt. We're not even dirt

we're plane which is nice but I lost the passion. I can't enjoy life like when I was a child... I paint, I write poetry and music... I had a healthy relationship but screwed it up just to see how it'd feel to be broken...

I don't sleep as much as I used to, I'm happy (figure of speech) if I can sleep 5 hours a night.

I drained everything on my quest to happiness now there's nothing left... I tried to keep everyone happy eventhough that meant I had to suffer but now there's no one to pick me up... I feel like I keep giving but nobody gives something back...

I'm lost, I have lost the passion and I want to search it but it's just useless or at least that's how I feel because I have lost it before and I found it again but I just can't keep my hands on it for long...

life drains me just as much as I drain life

I'm tired of life but I want to live again...

i wish u were somewhere near me man..

i would help u in every possible ways i can..

too bad u r far away in the US..

if u really cant cope, antidepressant's the way to go..