or at least that's what it feels like. So I gathered up all my courage to ask this guy out and then stayed home all day today and didn't go...
I woke up in a good mood today and tried to keep a positive spin on the day, remembering what was in store for me but around the time he said he'd call to finalize details I got freaked out. I got dressed and checked in the mirror but everytime I did it only helped to make me feel worse. I don't want to say that I need to spend my time in front of a mirror but when I'm allowing my thoughts to wander I keep thinking I look horrible to everyone, that everyone is talking about me and I know that if I can't stand to look at myself, how can anyone else? So after that I had to put myself in check and tell myself not to get overstressed.
Too late. I panicked and got into bed and let the answering machine pick it up. So basically I feel like I ruined that and he'll think I'm some kind of rude person and probably not bother with me again which I don't blame him for. So much for a guy, I spent my night with a cherry limeade and all my Spider Man comics to read. Ugh. Good thing I love Spider Man. The night didn't feel like a total waste. Or at least that's what I gotta tell myself lol.
I woke up in a good mood today and tried to keep a positive spin on the day, remembering what was in store for me but around the time he said he'd call to finalize details I got freaked out. I got dressed and checked in the mirror but everytime I did it only helped to make me feel worse. I don't want to say that I need to spend my time in front of a mirror but when I'm allowing my thoughts to wander I keep thinking I look horrible to everyone, that everyone is talking about me and I know that if I can't stand to look at myself, how can anyone else? So after that I had to put myself in check and tell myself not to get overstressed.
Too late. I panicked and got into bed and let the answering machine pick it up. So basically I feel like I ruined that and he'll think I'm some kind of rude person and probably not bother with me again which I don't blame him for. So much for a guy, I spent my night with a cherry limeade and all my Spider Man comics to read. Ugh. Good thing I love Spider Man. The night didn't feel like a total waste. Or at least that's what I gotta tell myself lol.
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