xmisunderstoodx
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I'm so depressed, I'm numb. I'm waiting for my body to die. Is that possible or will i just make myself very sick? I wish God would just let me come home now (if there even is a God, but I'd probably go somewhere else for slightly doubting his existence).
If I died, I don't think my family would be as miserable as I am right now. (Like died not suicide) When they see the way I am, they're like what the f*** is wrong with you. They think that not say it. My grandmother is stuck on why am I like this.
Nothing makes me happy. i don't clothes, Ipods, money, material things. I want smartness, want to be wise, social. I have some of that but it's like I'm some form of retarded. I'm 15 and I see people younger than me who has it all together and I feel.. (.....) They know how to dress, what goes together, more experience, social life, it's humiliating.
I'm not comfortable with my body anymore. Everyone's always pointing out something that's wrong. You're thighs are too big, you look like you're pregnant, put your lips in why you have them stuck out, you have flat butt, your nose is big, you're short, you need to get a figure, you laugh weird, any facial expression i make is ugly, your laugh is not cute, your hair damaged... I know I should ignore that but it makes me not care about my looks. Especially around boys...I don't ..eh
It won't end but it's alright .
If I died, I don't think my family would be as miserable as I am right now. (Like died not suicide) When they see the way I am, they're like what the f*** is wrong with you. They think that not say it. My grandmother is stuck on why am I like this.
Nothing makes me happy. i don't clothes, Ipods, money, material things. I want smartness, want to be wise, social. I have some of that but it's like I'm some form of retarded. I'm 15 and I see people younger than me who has it all together and I feel.. (.....) They know how to dress, what goes together, more experience, social life, it's humiliating.
I'm not comfortable with my body anymore. Everyone's always pointing out something that's wrong. You're thighs are too big, you look like you're pregnant, put your lips in why you have them stuck out, you have flat butt, your nose is big, you're short, you need to get a figure, you laugh weird, any facial expression i make is ugly, your laugh is not cute, your hair damaged... I know I should ignore that but it makes me not care about my looks. Especially around boys...I don't ..eh
It won't end but it's alright .