Hi wintersun,
Im sort of in the same situation as you. I recently broke up with my boyfriend and told him that its better if we should be friends. So about after a month of not talking, we chatted on msn and he asked me if I wanted to go for dinner as friends. And I said no and made up some excuse but really it was because of my anxiety. And i think he was really hurt because I said that we were going to be friends and now we arent. I really do want to be friends though, I just cant handle seeing him, I think i would be too nervous and anxious. I want to tell him everything about my SA and how I feel, but Im scarde what he would think and how he would handle it. Its weird because I want to see him so bad and talk to him but Im just to scarde.
Sorry I have no advice, I just wanted to share my situation with you.