Chilling__Echo
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grr, so the last three weeks have been horrible. i posted problems with my b/f before i left and we did end up breaking up just to get back together in a week. i still feel we are unstable now but i can only hope we work out. and if not think positively.
To all of you who's posts included depression, that's something i've never truely expierienced until now. that week that we were broken up i've never felt so down and since i'd isolated myself at school (he lives at my home an hour and a half from my college) i was truely alone. there's alot of hours in the day.
well anyway i'm gonna try not to make this long, i'm better now, guess i needed to hit bottom to come back and i'm still getting my life together, trying to find a job, trying to go to clubs at school (though with only three weeks left its pointless), i'm planning on volunteering at a no-kill cat shelter and i'm going back to church as well as going back on the paxil (no more sex life for me) and finally seeing a counselor for my self-esteem and anxiety.
i still wake up and being instantly hit with a pang of the anxiety and my stomach goes in knots, i have to sort of convince myself that "i can do this" to get going and i'm fine. anyone feel that way? but anyway, as i was saying to all you who really are depressed i feel you, and the last thing i want is to go back to where i was. i fear that feeling again and i hope that you all get the help that you need for yourselves because life doesn't have to be dark. and sorry to yall who's pms i've not answered! 8O
To all of you who's posts included depression, that's something i've never truely expierienced until now. that week that we were broken up i've never felt so down and since i'd isolated myself at school (he lives at my home an hour and a half from my college) i was truely alone. there's alot of hours in the day.
well anyway i'm gonna try not to make this long, i'm better now, guess i needed to hit bottom to come back and i'm still getting my life together, trying to find a job, trying to go to clubs at school (though with only three weeks left its pointless), i'm planning on volunteering at a no-kill cat shelter and i'm going back to church as well as going back on the paxil (no more sex life for me) and finally seeing a counselor for my self-esteem and anxiety.
i still wake up and being instantly hit with a pang of the anxiety and my stomach goes in knots, i have to sort of convince myself that "i can do this" to get going and i'm fine. anyone feel that way? but anyway, as i was saying to all you who really are depressed i feel you, and the last thing i want is to go back to where i was. i fear that feeling again and i hope that you all get the help that you need for yourselves because life doesn't have to be dark. and sorry to yall who's pms i've not answered! 8O