Mary
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I had a argument I guess w/my husband awhile ago. We were talking about his grandparents and he mentioned his grandmother was visiting relatives in a town nearby. I asked how come she didn't stop by to see our new baby. He gave me a funny look then ignored me. When I kept pressing him about it, he said, "do u really want to know?" I said yes, allready getting upset by his attitude then he told me because the last time they came (back when I was pregnant) I didn't come out to greet them and they think I don't like them. I don't even remember too well what he's talking about but I know I wasn't feeling good when it happened. SP wise. And I was on top of that pregnant and hormonal as well and I just couldn't take unexpected visitors too. I just couldn't, so I hid behind my pregnancy and didn't come out. Yes, it was wrong, yes, It was rude, but I just had one of those days when it was just too much. And what he said now really upset me. I know he's right but it just hurts. I want him to understand me. I don't want him to blame me. For something that I can't help. I can't help having Sp. God knows. Usually I make an effort w/his family. Usually, I am super stressed but I get through it well enough. Now ONE time, ONE time I couldn't do it and that's what they will allways remember about me. I can't explain to them about my phobia. They won't understand, my husband doesn't understand and hes been w/me for about ten years now. It just hurts, I just need to vent to other people who DO understand.
YES, I'm looking for sympathy, even though I don't deserve it, even though I am being selfish.
YES, I'm looking for sympathy, even though I don't deserve it, even though I am being selfish.