hayashi
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Today some one who I guess I could consider a friend of mine asked me if she would like to see me perform at a dance off later tonight.
I decided to go because I thought it would be a good way to I guess in a way make me less depressed because I guess contact with people is good for that.I left her a text message asking her which building the dance off is in (we live on campus) and she didn't respond back to me.
I made a guess as to where it could be and luckily I found it my first try. When I arrived there I saw a friend of mine from high school I wanted to talk to him but I guess I was just to scared so I didn't really say anything to him. When I walked up to the area that the dance off was supposed to take placed I noticed all the people standing around and I begin to think to myself... Wow I am really really alone. I saw a few people dance including my friend and I just left without even talking to her (I don't really think she wanted me there) I thought to myself that maybe I was happier alone? Or that maybe someday I would grow accustomed to it I guess.
Another thing is the fact that I hate mostly every one I mean I guess I just don't trust them its hard to explain please do not take this in the wrong meaning but its the best way I can explain it.
TL;DR
Should I just get used to being lonely? Or should I do something to kinda fix it? If so what should I do?
Also how do you all feel about being lonely do you enjoy it or do you dislike it?
Sorry for that being so long just feeling pretty down about this I guess :s
:edit:
I just found out that girl actually did want to hang out with me but afterwards I guess.... wow maybe I am just paranoid?
I decided to go because I thought it would be a good way to I guess in a way make me less depressed because I guess contact with people is good for that.I left her a text message asking her which building the dance off is in (we live on campus) and she didn't respond back to me.
I made a guess as to where it could be and luckily I found it my first try. When I arrived there I saw a friend of mine from high school I wanted to talk to him but I guess I was just to scared so I didn't really say anything to him. When I walked up to the area that the dance off was supposed to take placed I noticed all the people standing around and I begin to think to myself... Wow I am really really alone. I saw a few people dance including my friend and I just left without even talking to her (I don't really think she wanted me there) I thought to myself that maybe I was happier alone? Or that maybe someday I would grow accustomed to it I guess.
Another thing is the fact that I hate mostly every one I mean I guess I just don't trust them its hard to explain please do not take this in the wrong meaning but its the best way I can explain it.
TL;DR
Should I just get used to being lonely? Or should I do something to kinda fix it? If so what should I do?
Also how do you all feel about being lonely do you enjoy it or do you dislike it?
Sorry for that being so long just feeling pretty down about this I guess :s
:edit:
I just found out that girl actually did want to hang out with me but afterwards I guess.... wow maybe I am just paranoid?