This is becoming more of an issue now. Before, it doesnt bother us much because his social interactions are mostly his teammates and i am not obliged to meet them since i always have an excuse and i dont really watch sports. Now, he has formed close friendships with some of them and my hubby have started introducing me to their social gatherings. He knows I am socially awkward so he doesn't force me but one time he successfully convinced me to meet them through constant begging. Seriously i only did it because i feel bad for my husband. Well, it was just a small gathering and it turned out ok. It wasnt really bad.
However, even if ive already met them, i still couldnt help but feel anxious when my hubby wants me to hangout with his friends. Nothings wrong with them. They are actually nice welcoming people. It's just my anxiety kicking in.
Most of the time I can get away because of work. But trouble starts when i have no work and i couldnt find any excuse not to join him.
Like today, its holiday so he wanted us to have a get together with his friends. At first im making excuses that the weather's bad then it became sunny so i told him im tired. He knows im making excuses so he messaged his friends that we're going to see them. I switched to tantrum mode and said im gonna act bitchy if he forces me to come. That started our fight today. Anyway, the meeting was cancelled because not everyone can go. However im in super cranky mood now that i still went out against his will. Im now at the park trying to calm my mood.
Honestly i feel so guilty. I feel bad that i am so effin scared of social situations that i cant support my husband. Its just that im not ready. Some days i feel like i can pretend or i can make some extra effort but today i just feel emotionally tired. I dont know when i will be ready again.
Now im still here feeling sorry for myself and feeling sorry for my hubby.
However, even if ive already met them, i still couldnt help but feel anxious when my hubby wants me to hangout with his friends. Nothings wrong with them. They are actually nice welcoming people. It's just my anxiety kicking in.
Most of the time I can get away because of work. But trouble starts when i have no work and i couldnt find any excuse not to join him.
Like today, its holiday so he wanted us to have a get together with his friends. At first im making excuses that the weather's bad then it became sunny so i told him im tired. He knows im making excuses so he messaged his friends that we're going to see them. I switched to tantrum mode and said im gonna act bitchy if he forces me to come. That started our fight today. Anyway, the meeting was cancelled because not everyone can go. However im in super cranky mood now that i still went out against his will. Im now at the park trying to calm my mood.
Honestly i feel so guilty. I feel bad that i am so effin scared of social situations that i cant support my husband. Its just that im not ready. Some days i feel like i can pretend or i can make some extra effort but today i just feel emotionally tired. I dont know when i will be ready again.
Now im still here feeling sorry for myself and feeling sorry for my hubby.