Toomuchfear
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Last night, I decided to get an early night. I had had a really tough day at work, I had a headache and felt sick- and my anxiety was so high I had little focus on what I was doing. I counted the stock completely wrong, I felt so bad, as the manager smiled to me for the first time that day (she's one those people who don't understand the conversationally shy- they think we're just weird) and now she's gonna hate me.
So I went to bed at half 10, I needed to get rested after such a long day. My body was exhausted. But my mind was not! Different thoughts flickered through my head, out of my control. I tried to focus on a single apple in my mind, an object that cannot change. But my mind wandered. I couldn't shut it off. I wanted to sleep so bad, I was anxious I'd be knackered the next day if I was exhausted again.
I thought of work, the girl I liked who now ignores me, my life, tv shows, the past, my problems, my parents...the hours went by. I tried tensing all my muscles, tried listening to music. Eventually I fell asleep at some ungodly hour. My brain really scares how active it can be, i wish there was a shutoff button !
So I went to bed at half 10, I needed to get rested after such a long day. My body was exhausted. But my mind was not! Different thoughts flickered through my head, out of my control. I tried to focus on a single apple in my mind, an object that cannot change. But my mind wandered. I couldn't shut it off. I wanted to sleep so bad, I was anxious I'd be knackered the next day if I was exhausted again.
I thought of work, the girl I liked who now ignores me, my life, tv shows, the past, my problems, my parents...the hours went by. I tried tensing all my muscles, tried listening to music. Eventually I fell asleep at some ungodly hour. My brain really scares how active it can be, i wish there was a shutoff button !
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