Iseesky
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So I wrote a massively large post about my first date, but decided nobody would read it all and deleted it...Here's the short version...
TL;DR When I was 18 I went out on a date with a 22 year old that I had a crush on in high school (though I had never talked to him in high school). It was incredibly awkward and he tried to kiss me (he succeeded before I pushed him away...my first 'kiss') and hold my hand and it made me uncomfortable and he was the opposite of chivalrous (didn't hold the door open for me...made me hold the umbrella despite him being 6 foot and me being 5'2...ignored my movie choice and chose to watch a different one instead). He was very touchy, but less of a horndog trying to get in my pants and more bad with women, I think. Either way, he was a very confident guy who liked talking about himself.
So, with that said...I feel kind of weird about boys (boys as in...men lol). I love boys, :: but whenever I think of kissing a boy, I think of my first 'kiss' and how awkward it was and how it wasn't pleasant at all. And then I wonder what's going to happen if I go on another date. I've had more guys that have been interested in me (ones that I actually converse with, rather than just listen to them talk about themselves), but I haven't done much about them because I don't want the awkwardness of holding hands or kissing or anything like that. I'm fearful of going on another date. But, even more than that...I just feel weird whenever I picture myself kissing a guy. Kissing seems so weird and gross to me now. :|
I don't even know where I was going with this whole thing. I guess I just want someone to say that they've had an awkward dating experience and that not all of them are like that! Anyone?
TL;DR When I was 18 I went out on a date with a 22 year old that I had a crush on in high school (though I had never talked to him in high school). It was incredibly awkward and he tried to kiss me (he succeeded before I pushed him away...my first 'kiss') and hold my hand and it made me uncomfortable and he was the opposite of chivalrous (didn't hold the door open for me...made me hold the umbrella despite him being 6 foot and me being 5'2...ignored my movie choice and chose to watch a different one instead). He was very touchy, but less of a horndog trying to get in my pants and more bad with women, I think. Either way, he was a very confident guy who liked talking about himself.
So, with that said...I feel kind of weird about boys (boys as in...men lol). I love boys, :: but whenever I think of kissing a boy, I think of my first 'kiss' and how awkward it was and how it wasn't pleasant at all. And then I wonder what's going to happen if I go on another date. I've had more guys that have been interested in me (ones that I actually converse with, rather than just listen to them talk about themselves), but I haven't done much about them because I don't want the awkwardness of holding hands or kissing or anything like that. I'm fearful of going on another date. But, even more than that...I just feel weird whenever I picture myself kissing a guy. Kissing seems so weird and gross to me now. :|
I don't even know where I was going with this whole thing. I guess I just want someone to say that they've had an awkward dating experience and that not all of them are like that! Anyone?
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