Well I have had OCD for about 2 years, I am 20 now, and take 300mg of fluvoxamine. I have succesfully beaten many of my obsessions and compulsions, but they always take their twists and turns. I recently have gone though some extremely tough moments in my life, and my OCD is kind of getting worse. I have had about every compulsion, and obession in the book.
To be specific my worst ones are:
Fear of something bad happening to my family/friends, epecially since one of these events has actually happened !
troublesome with sexaul thoughts/ feelings, especially when there combined with religion
Degrading sexaul thoughts, and when I get anxious I become sexaully compulsive, and since im not in a relationship, i have weird and degrading experiences with masturbating to porn. I can go on and on about this but to simplify it, I have really wierd sexual obessions.
Completey obessesd about relgion sometimes. I was raised a christian and every time I read the bible i get extremely confused and angry at certain things the bible says.
Every violent feeling I have is always aimed at he things that I dont want them aimed at. For example I always seem to get bad intrusive thoughts toward my mom, or somethign that I care about more than other things.
Before I had OCD i was a happy camper.
On the lighter side I am a pretty happy individual, who for the most part has handled OCD pretty well, but on my bad days ( like today) I feel like a complete mess. I feel like a violent, perverted piece of scum sometimes. I also feel like a dweeb alot of the times too, because my OCD always seems to attack stuff that I dont want to feel bad about.
Sorry for my ramble, I just need to whine sometimes.
Also some of these feelings and urges have become so strong, that I dont know if Im really messed up or just have bad OCD.
I try to be the best caring, thoughtful, and loving person, but sometiems I end up feeling like a utter waste. I have worked my ass off in many areas, and it's really frustrating to see no results sometiems.
Are all these common OCD symptoms?
I am about to go see a councelor, should I do this?
Can anyone relalte, with these messed up sexual and religious feelings?
What are some suggestions for handling some of my thoughts?
To be specific my worst ones are:
Fear of something bad happening to my family/friends, epecially since one of these events has actually happened !
troublesome with sexaul thoughts/ feelings, especially when there combined with religion
Degrading sexaul thoughts, and when I get anxious I become sexaully compulsive, and since im not in a relationship, i have weird and degrading experiences with masturbating to porn. I can go on and on about this but to simplify it, I have really wierd sexual obessions.
Completey obessesd about relgion sometimes. I was raised a christian and every time I read the bible i get extremely confused and angry at certain things the bible says.
Every violent feeling I have is always aimed at he things that I dont want them aimed at. For example I always seem to get bad intrusive thoughts toward my mom, or somethign that I care about more than other things.
Before I had OCD i was a happy camper.
On the lighter side I am a pretty happy individual, who for the most part has handled OCD pretty well, but on my bad days ( like today) I feel like a complete mess. I feel like a violent, perverted piece of scum sometimes. I also feel like a dweeb alot of the times too, because my OCD always seems to attack stuff that I dont want to feel bad about.
Sorry for my ramble, I just need to whine sometimes.
Also some of these feelings and urges have become so strong, that I dont know if Im really messed up or just have bad OCD.
I try to be the best caring, thoughtful, and loving person, but sometiems I end up feeling like a utter waste. I have worked my ass off in many areas, and it's really frustrating to see no results sometiems.
Are all these common OCD symptoms?
I am about to go see a councelor, should I do this?
Can anyone relalte, with these messed up sexual and religious feelings?
What are some suggestions for handling some of my thoughts?