galigator8509
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These are some of my OCD obsessions - fears:
1. I have a huge fear of gaining weight. So huge that I refuse to go on birth control because there is a possibility that you can gain a few pounds from it. Now, when I told my doctor that she goes "well would you rather gain a few pounds, or would you rather be fat for nine months?" and I have a feeling she was hoping I would choose the first one but my answer to her was "Id honestly rather be fat for nine months, than gain weight from birth control." Now, I know everyone probably thinks im crazy for giving her that answer, but its just something I couldnt help. Because my fear of gaining weight is so strong sometimes I wont eat as much as I usually do, ill count my calories, or try not to eat. Accept after doing that I go and binge like crazy and eat everything in site. The ironic part is I fear weight gain, but I cannot control my eating, and I eat non stop.
2. I have a huge fear of becoming pregnant. This fear makes me not allowed to watch any shows that include being pregnant, or having a kid. For example all those shows on the Discovery Health Channel or TLC. I can however watch 16 & Pregnant, and Teen Mom because since im older than 16 and they got pregnant a 16 I feel as though its safe to watch it because im already older than them. But all the other shows I cant watch.
3. Whenever my boyfriend has to go away on 8 hour trips for his business and m schedule doesnt allow me to go with him I literally have breakdowns. I cry, and cry, and cry, and I cant stop. Im just so upset that its like uncontrolable. I fear that if im not with him on these long trips something might happen to him, and I wouldnt have been with him.
4. I have a fear of becoming sick. I freak out, and pray everytime I hear someone say anything along the line of puke, vomit, or close related words. I also wont share any drinks or food with anyone. One time my friend drank out of my Apple Juice I had just bought, and I freaked out on her so much she gave me money to go buy a new one. Also if I hear the word cancer I get all sketched out. Plus my friend has cancer. Im just so afraid of all the illness's I hear are going to happen to me. I usually cant even TYPE the words I have mentioned, but sadly I needed too in order to express this fear.
There are more, but here are a few.
1. I have a huge fear of gaining weight. So huge that I refuse to go on birth control because there is a possibility that you can gain a few pounds from it. Now, when I told my doctor that she goes "well would you rather gain a few pounds, or would you rather be fat for nine months?" and I have a feeling she was hoping I would choose the first one but my answer to her was "Id honestly rather be fat for nine months, than gain weight from birth control." Now, I know everyone probably thinks im crazy for giving her that answer, but its just something I couldnt help. Because my fear of gaining weight is so strong sometimes I wont eat as much as I usually do, ill count my calories, or try not to eat. Accept after doing that I go and binge like crazy and eat everything in site. The ironic part is I fear weight gain, but I cannot control my eating, and I eat non stop.
2. I have a huge fear of becoming pregnant. This fear makes me not allowed to watch any shows that include being pregnant, or having a kid. For example all those shows on the Discovery Health Channel or TLC. I can however watch 16 & Pregnant, and Teen Mom because since im older than 16 and they got pregnant a 16 I feel as though its safe to watch it because im already older than them. But all the other shows I cant watch.
3. Whenever my boyfriend has to go away on 8 hour trips for his business and m schedule doesnt allow me to go with him I literally have breakdowns. I cry, and cry, and cry, and I cant stop. Im just so upset that its like uncontrolable. I fear that if im not with him on these long trips something might happen to him, and I wouldnt have been with him.
4. I have a fear of becoming sick. I freak out, and pray everytime I hear someone say anything along the line of puke, vomit, or close related words. I also wont share any drinks or food with anyone. One time my friend drank out of my Apple Juice I had just bought, and I freaked out on her so much she gave me money to go buy a new one. Also if I hear the word cancer I get all sketched out. Plus my friend has cancer. Im just so afraid of all the illness's I hear are going to happen to me. I usually cant even TYPE the words I have mentioned, but sadly I needed too in order to express this fear.
There are more, but here are a few.