Chrisfishes
Well-known member
Hi there,
I am new this site and would some opinions. I am 27 Male, I grew up in canada but am living ni spain at the moment. In september last year I went to see my local doc after months of chaos in my head trying to figure it all out. He told me i was dpressed and gave me effexor. After a couple of weeks he gave me xanax and I felt for the first time in years like my head was clear, no inner talking etc. Now it is march I am still taking the anti deprssants but the xanax only when I need to go out. My job as a care taker of a house with my girlfriend makes it the perfect job that i never have to see any one or interact with anyone. Over the last few months i find I only really go out to the supermarket. But My girlfriend and i are splitting up in a couple of months and leaving the job maily beacuse she is an extemley social person and I am the opposite. Sex has always been a problem because even her hand on my stomach causes me to tense up instantly and I lose interest, I also find my self very ticklish and can't relax enough to enjoy myself. We have been together for three years. She is the first person I have ever let anywhere near my feelings, not out of choice but now that I look back on my life I see that I have always ran and hid. Our job allows me near constant seclusion which i like but I don't know if i like it because I do or because it is the only place I can relax and feel calm. I am scared of what will happen in a couple months when I am on my own again. From about 14 untill very recently I lived pretty much entirley in my head, again not by choice but i guess out of habit. I have now just started to open up but am still quite confused. Also I used and still use marijuana for the last 10 years, i suppose to i used to ease what seemed like constant tension. Any way I will write more later, I still have not had a proper diagnosis of my "condition" any questions anyone has I can answer to help me figure this all out.
Chris
I am new this site and would some opinions. I am 27 Male, I grew up in canada but am living ni spain at the moment. In september last year I went to see my local doc after months of chaos in my head trying to figure it all out. He told me i was dpressed and gave me effexor. After a couple of weeks he gave me xanax and I felt for the first time in years like my head was clear, no inner talking etc. Now it is march I am still taking the anti deprssants but the xanax only when I need to go out. My job as a care taker of a house with my girlfriend makes it the perfect job that i never have to see any one or interact with anyone. Over the last few months i find I only really go out to the supermarket. But My girlfriend and i are splitting up in a couple of months and leaving the job maily beacuse she is an extemley social person and I am the opposite. Sex has always been a problem because even her hand on my stomach causes me to tense up instantly and I lose interest, I also find my self very ticklish and can't relax enough to enjoy myself. We have been together for three years. She is the first person I have ever let anywhere near my feelings, not out of choice but now that I look back on my life I see that I have always ran and hid. Our job allows me near constant seclusion which i like but I don't know if i like it because I do or because it is the only place I can relax and feel calm. I am scared of what will happen in a couple months when I am on my own again. From about 14 untill very recently I lived pretty much entirley in my head, again not by choice but i guess out of habit. I have now just started to open up but am still quite confused. Also I used and still use marijuana for the last 10 years, i suppose to i used to ease what seemed like constant tension. Any way I will write more later, I still have not had a proper diagnosis of my "condition" any questions anyone has I can answer to help me figure this all out.
Chris