Lately I have been talking to my parents about my troubles with depression and social anxiety etc. I am 26 years old and live on my own so I have not lived with my parents for quite some time.
Anyways, they are starting to worry and they usually do not care at all about me. My mom and dad are certain that I am going to commit suicide. I had the most awkward conversation of my entire life yesterday with my mom. I told her everything and how much this all impacts my life. She ended up crying and I felt terrible. She went on and on about how it was all "her fault" and made me feel like crap.. even lower than I already was.
My dad caught drift of this conversation we had and drove out unexpectedly to see me today. He said he was worried. My dad NEVER talks to me. We then proceeded to have the worst conversation of my life. I found out that I guess he thinks I am gay since I have never really had any relationships. He said I should try find a boyfriend or a girlfriend. I sunk even lower. I am definitely not gay! Thanks for thinking that....
At least now I know what my parents really think of me and my life. My mom blames herself and my dad thinks I am gay. Great. I have to go to a funeral on the weekend and will end up spending a few nights at there house. I can only imagine the time I will have.
I wish they would stay out of my life since they are definitely not helping. I know they care.... but it just is not working.
Man how I wish I could be normal.
Anyways, they are starting to worry and they usually do not care at all about me. My mom and dad are certain that I am going to commit suicide. I had the most awkward conversation of my entire life yesterday with my mom. I told her everything and how much this all impacts my life. She ended up crying and I felt terrible. She went on and on about how it was all "her fault" and made me feel like crap.. even lower than I already was.
My dad caught drift of this conversation we had and drove out unexpectedly to see me today. He said he was worried. My dad NEVER talks to me. We then proceeded to have the worst conversation of my life. I found out that I guess he thinks I am gay since I have never really had any relationships. He said I should try find a boyfriend or a girlfriend. I sunk even lower. I am definitely not gay! Thanks for thinking that....
At least now I know what my parents really think of me and my life. My mom blames herself and my dad thinks I am gay. Great. I have to go to a funeral on the weekend and will end up spending a few nights at there house. I can only imagine the time I will have.
I wish they would stay out of my life since they are definitely not helping. I know they care.... but it just is not working.
Man how I wish I could be normal.