xinhdep_girl
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I'm a 15 year old girl. I have a problem where I would stare at everyone in my peripheral vision. EVERYONE. I notice every single thing. I don't want to get people uncomfortable! Really, I have much better things to do than sit and stare. It gets so embarrassing. I want to hide sometimes. It got really bad in Spanish class yesterday. The teacher told me to look at the board so she could explain to me something I did wrong. Everyone in my peripheral vision was looking at me and I just couldn't look up anymore. I ended up looking at everyone in my peripheral vision... I had to explain to her the next day. :sad:
Now, I'm going to go to a therapist/psychiatrist for it. I wish there were some medication to stop this. I'd be very, very thankful. I was a very talkative girl, I loved talking to people and making friends. I love being in the spotlight. Heck, I still do, but when I think about going out there with my OCD....no.... I get so jealous of people I see on stage. It started around age 13/14.... Now I am too insecure to make new friends...or I try to avoid getting to close to them. I don't want to go out. Sometimes, I want to travel. I would LOVE to go to a different country to study for a year or something. I can't even do that anymore. This summer, I want to take a Spanish 3 class at a college because I hate Spanish and want to get it over with...but another few weeks at school?? Count me out. I want summer to come so that I can be by myself.
I can't even watch movies with people because they notice me looking at them. It's gotten SO bad that now when I watch movies/look at the board, I have to check (directly) to see if people notice me looking. Now they can really catch me looking. It's taking over me and I can't wait to go to someone to help me.....I feel like it will take over my social life, my love life, it has even happened with my family members. I want to be normal again.
I get anti-social because of this. I don't want people to think I'm the weird girl that stares at everyone. It wasn't as bad before but now it is. In math class and spanish class I sit in the back and it's torture.
I don't want to miss out on life anymore. I want to live normally again.
Now, I'm going to go to a therapist/psychiatrist for it. I wish there were some medication to stop this. I'd be very, very thankful. I was a very talkative girl, I loved talking to people and making friends. I love being in the spotlight. Heck, I still do, but when I think about going out there with my OCD....no.... I get so jealous of people I see on stage. It started around age 13/14.... Now I am too insecure to make new friends...or I try to avoid getting to close to them. I don't want to go out. Sometimes, I want to travel. I would LOVE to go to a different country to study for a year or something. I can't even do that anymore. This summer, I want to take a Spanish 3 class at a college because I hate Spanish and want to get it over with...but another few weeks at school?? Count me out. I want summer to come so that I can be by myself.
I can't even watch movies with people because they notice me looking at them. It's gotten SO bad that now when I watch movies/look at the board, I have to check (directly) to see if people notice me looking. Now they can really catch me looking. It's taking over me and I can't wait to go to someone to help me.....I feel like it will take over my social life, my love life, it has even happened with my family members. I want to be normal again.
I get anti-social because of this. I don't want people to think I'm the weird girl that stares at everyone. It wasn't as bad before but now it is. In math class and spanish class I sit in the back and it's torture.
I don't want to miss out on life anymore. I want to live normally again.
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