I’ve gradually come to realize that my perception of myself as utterly insignificant has caused numerous problems. That is, the idea of myself that I don’t count, don’t matter, and so on.
I have hurt others with my absence or silence when I thought it would go unnoticed. I’ve hurt others with my opinions when I didn’t think my opinion would matter.
I’ve been baffled by the idea that someone would remember me, or desire my respect, attention, ideas, and so on. This has caused me to miss opportunities and sometimes react with fear or suspicion when smiling would have been more appropriate.
Please do not interpret this as a plea for people to tell me I matter--doing so in response to this sort of post would feel false and just make me feel bad in the end. I believe that this is largely an irrational notion on my part, and have made some progress with it. What I want is to know if anyone else can relate to this.
I have hurt others with my absence or silence when I thought it would go unnoticed. I’ve hurt others with my opinions when I didn’t think my opinion would matter.
I’ve been baffled by the idea that someone would remember me, or desire my respect, attention, ideas, and so on. This has caused me to miss opportunities and sometimes react with fear or suspicion when smiling would have been more appropriate.
Please do not interpret this as a plea for people to tell me I matter--doing so in response to this sort of post would feel false and just make me feel bad in the end. I believe that this is largely an irrational notion on my part, and have made some progress with it. What I want is to know if anyone else can relate to this.