Well...I've accomplished this much... However I still have one problem. I haven't told my family anything of this. I'm terrified to. You see, this is the second time I've gone off and gotten a degree and the "the job" tong go with it only to decide I don't like it after all... I don't think my parents would care to go through that again. My parents aren't exactly the supportive type. My husband's family, on the other hand, is jumping in to help us move back, no judgment, didn't even ask. They are wonderful. Its kinda like having the sides of my family I never had. Sure I can tell them how everything has gone to crap in a hand basket, but I guarantee they will say what most everyone says... "Hang in there..." But I will probably try anyway to see if they say anything different. They don't know I have SA, by the way. I don't really want to throw away another degree, but at the same time I don't think I'll find any animal related jobs back home... except for shelters and I think my body has proved to me I can't quite do the physical labor I thought I could push through.
Anyway, my mom had called and I didn't pick up, I didn't feel ready to talk to them. But I don't want to worry them either, so I'll probably have to call tomorrow. Ugh and my dad loves to put me on speaker phone... I hate that. I hope my mom picks up when I call, maybe I can tell her not to. But my mom almost.never answers the phone.
Anywho...I'm rambling. I better get to sleep...fighting off a lovely kidney infection and am quite tired. Goodnight
