bonafide
Member
Hello all
I feel I have really fell in the pit this time.
I started my first day on the job yesterday as an I.T. Manager (aka computer guy) in a 150 user doctor's clinic.
Today, I called up my supervisor and told her I didn't feel I was the right man for the job. I felt overwhelmed by the responsibilities and scope and resigned. She appeared very understanding.
I feel about as low as I ever been in my life. I realize that things could be much worse. I feel like a coward and p**** for quitting after one day of work. I feel I have let myself down, and have let others who knew about this new opportunity down. I feel like my professional progression has been totally derailed.
I felt overwhelmed by the social implications of my job. The network needed so much improvement...I was supporting a variety of people, including doctors, nurses, and therapists. The day started well enough...but I think it all hit me within the few hours I was there. It's like a feeling that says "Let me the heck out of here." No matter how I tried to reason with myself or calm myself down, I was panicky and felt totally unworthy to stay. Every day I could have stayed on the job, would equal every additional day of worry and anxiety, and I think that was what ultimatley made me want to leave.
I need counsel from those of you who suffer as I do, or can relate to this situation. I believe I have suffered from social anxiety all my life, but only recently have I begun to get help (one session with counselor this past Thursday).
I feel I have really fell in the pit this time.
I started my first day on the job yesterday as an I.T. Manager (aka computer guy) in a 150 user doctor's clinic.
Today, I called up my supervisor and told her I didn't feel I was the right man for the job. I felt overwhelmed by the responsibilities and scope and resigned. She appeared very understanding.
I feel about as low as I ever been in my life. I realize that things could be much worse. I feel like a coward and p**** for quitting after one day of work. I feel I have let myself down, and have let others who knew about this new opportunity down. I feel like my professional progression has been totally derailed.
I felt overwhelmed by the social implications of my job. The network needed so much improvement...I was supporting a variety of people, including doctors, nurses, and therapists. The day started well enough...but I think it all hit me within the few hours I was there. It's like a feeling that says "Let me the heck out of here." No matter how I tried to reason with myself or calm myself down, I was panicky and felt totally unworthy to stay. Every day I could have stayed on the job, would equal every additional day of worry and anxiety, and I think that was what ultimatley made me want to leave.
I need counsel from those of you who suffer as I do, or can relate to this situation. I believe I have suffered from social anxiety all my life, but only recently have I begun to get help (one session with counselor this past Thursday).