behindcloseddoors
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hi I have suffered social phobia all my life, there have been points in my life where I have had brief relationships with girls, none of my relationships has lasted more than 3 months. Usually the girls I meet are the loud outgoing strong type who do all the work.
But the point is I now have 3 children by different mothers, I see all the kids regularly and try to keep the relationship with their mothers friendly.
I feel my Sp is rubbing of on my two boys one of which is now in counselling and not at all on my daughter. My boys have a very small social circle like two or 3 friends, they don't go out and are akward around others.
This is making me feel very depressed and I often think they would be better off without me. I'm taking time of of work at the moment to see a doctor, get some antidepressants and arrange councelling for myself.
My ex's both say that I have put my life on hold for the last 11 years to be around the children, but as they are growing up they need their space and time. Which I understand as I feel I have been stiffling them with my lack of social life I'm always around them.
I don't know if anyone cares or has anything else to suggest, I just wish god would take me know so it all would be over - no more pain.
But the point is I now have 3 children by different mothers, I see all the kids regularly and try to keep the relationship with their mothers friendly.
I feel my Sp is rubbing of on my two boys one of which is now in counselling and not at all on my daughter. My boys have a very small social circle like two or 3 friends, they don't go out and are akward around others.
This is making me feel very depressed and I often think they would be better off without me. I'm taking time of of work at the moment to see a doctor, get some antidepressants and arrange councelling for myself.
My ex's both say that I have put my life on hold for the last 11 years to be around the children, but as they are growing up they need their space and time. Which I understand as I feel I have been stiffling them with my lack of social life I'm always around them.
I don't know if anyone cares or has anything else to suggest, I just wish god would take me know so it all would be over - no more pain.