I feel so amazingly crap!
I started work at this gift shop last week, and I'm new so I occasionally make mistakes on the til, but everyone always makes this huge deal out of it even though everyone else makes mistakes too, and I feel lame! This one women said to me 'I know you're not stupid, but you keep making these mistakes and the boss will get sick of it', and that just made me feel stupid. Maybe I am stupid! But that woman is like 50 and she's been working behind tils since she was 15 no wonder she's good at it! I'm sorry if I have better things to succeed at than working behind a til!
The more they pressure me, and make a big deal out of the tiny mistakes I make, the more mistakes I make! Because I start panicking, and feeling so stupid and lame!
It's only a stupid job that's getting me money for a car and driving lessons, and I've only been there a week! I've never used a til before! I just hate it cos I know I'm intelligent, but I don't pick up things like how to use a til easily, I go too fast and miss hitting a key and stuff :'(
Surely jobs aint meant to cause this much self loathing?! Cos I don't think I'm gonna be able to work for my whole life if this is how it's gonna make me feel :'(
Naomi x
I started work at this gift shop last week, and I'm new so I occasionally make mistakes on the til, but everyone always makes this huge deal out of it even though everyone else makes mistakes too, and I feel lame! This one women said to me 'I know you're not stupid, but you keep making these mistakes and the boss will get sick of it', and that just made me feel stupid. Maybe I am stupid! But that woman is like 50 and she's been working behind tils since she was 15 no wonder she's good at it! I'm sorry if I have better things to succeed at than working behind a til!
The more they pressure me, and make a big deal out of the tiny mistakes I make, the more mistakes I make! Because I start panicking, and feeling so stupid and lame!
It's only a stupid job that's getting me money for a car and driving lessons, and I've only been there a week! I've never used a til before! I just hate it cos I know I'm intelligent, but I don't pick up things like how to use a til easily, I go too fast and miss hitting a key and stuff :'(
Surely jobs aint meant to cause this much self loathing?! Cos I don't think I'm gonna be able to work for my whole life if this is how it's gonna make me feel :'(
Naomi x