thugaveli
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I have been diagnosed with social anxiety but im really begining to wonder if i have avoidant personality disorder
Im not so sure its recognised in the UK?
I asked my therapist if he thought i had avpd and he laughed and said youve been reading too much on the internet, i could have slapped him right at that moment
He wouldnt read any of my notes because i find it very hard talking about my problems so really he didnt get the full picture of my illness
Well heres a few factors
I hate my personality and hate everything about me, the way i behave, the things i do, the way i do things
I am ashamed of everything and anything personally to do with me, i even wrote in my notes that i could be playing football for england and id still be ashamed of myself
I hate people getting too close and personal, if people ask me what things i like doing i get all anxious and depressed because im ashamed of myself
I have very low self esteem around people and cant open up and talk about things in general like music, movies, chit chat because im ashamed and feel people may critisise my tastes or in their mind they may be thinking bad of me
I am very sensitive to critisism even though i know every one at some point will get critisised but i cannot accept it and i either have to put things right otherwise im not happy, it plays on my mind that somebody doesnt like me
There could be 99 people that love me and 1 person that doesnt and id take it to heart and that 1 person would upset me, thats how sensitive and deluded i am
I cant help it =(
Im not so sure its recognised in the UK?
I asked my therapist if he thought i had avpd and he laughed and said youve been reading too much on the internet, i could have slapped him right at that moment
He wouldnt read any of my notes because i find it very hard talking about my problems so really he didnt get the full picture of my illness
Well heres a few factors
I hate my personality and hate everything about me, the way i behave, the things i do, the way i do things
I am ashamed of everything and anything personally to do with me, i even wrote in my notes that i could be playing football for england and id still be ashamed of myself
I hate people getting too close and personal, if people ask me what things i like doing i get all anxious and depressed because im ashamed of myself
I have very low self esteem around people and cant open up and talk about things in general like music, movies, chit chat because im ashamed and feel people may critisise my tastes or in their mind they may be thinking bad of me
I am very sensitive to critisism even though i know every one at some point will get critisised but i cannot accept it and i either have to put things right otherwise im not happy, it plays on my mind that somebody doesnt like me
There could be 99 people that love me and 1 person that doesnt and id take it to heart and that 1 person would upset me, thats how sensitive and deluded i am
I cant help it =(