diesel
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on wednesday i was diagnosed with scoliosis . was wondering if anyone else here has it ?
for anyone who doesnt know its when your spine twists and curves instead of growning strainght . it causes pain , bad posture , artheritus in the spine , depression , digestive problems and it looks really bad too .
i must admit even though i knew like it still hit me hard when the doctor said it to me . for the first time in a long time i felt tears swell u behind my eyes but i controlled my emotions . funnily enough the doctor is the same one that performed the operation on me when i was like 7 days old . unfortunately there is no cure for it and the best i can hope for is to slow down the process .
even writing about it is upsetting because it makes it more real but i have it and thats that . i am being sent to a spine surgeon and have to get an mri too . i am scared i must admit but the diagnosis has done something to me , its as if something inside broke and i do feel different since .
also the doctor said my lung and heart are in good condition which is good news and then said i have 40 years left - im only 19 like , that hit me emotionally too . life is like one kick in the balls after another for me , i really am sick of it at this stage .
for anyone who doesnt know its when your spine twists and curves instead of growning strainght . it causes pain , bad posture , artheritus in the spine , depression , digestive problems and it looks really bad too .
i must admit even though i knew like it still hit me hard when the doctor said it to me . for the first time in a long time i felt tears swell u behind my eyes but i controlled my emotions . funnily enough the doctor is the same one that performed the operation on me when i was like 7 days old . unfortunately there is no cure for it and the best i can hope for is to slow down the process .
even writing about it is upsetting because it makes it more real but i have it and thats that . i am being sent to a spine surgeon and have to get an mri too . i am scared i must admit but the diagnosis has done something to me , its as if something inside broke and i do feel different since .
also the doctor said my lung and heart are in good condition which is good news and then said i have 40 years left - im only 19 like , that hit me emotionally too . life is like one kick in the balls after another for me , i really am sick of it at this stage .