206Raider
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One Of The Worst Days Of My Life
Basically I feel like I'm not shit, everyone is on me about doing something, but today I feel like **** it. I can't get anyone no christmas presents and people are mad becuase they get me stuff, well **** it I don't need anything or want anything I wish I got nothing. My best friend called me today and is moving back to Chicago, partly becuase he pissed me off the other day for disappearing. Everybody just drops out of my life, I'm not used to being alone but really I am. In school I pretty much knew everyone around, 4 years later I'm all alone thanks to this SA shit. People think I'm cold becuase I'm hurt and never cry, like my grandpa was very important to me and he died 2 years ago and never shed a tear, so people act like I don't care. I'm too accustomed to pain that nothing really bothers me.
Damn I just need to go out and get completely wasted I want to get on a damn spaceship and leave this earth for awhile becuase the future is bleak, ya'll can keep the sunshine and save me the rain. I'm gone.
(No, this isn't suicidal, don't get this mixed up with that)
Basically I feel like I'm not shit, everyone is on me about doing something, but today I feel like **** it. I can't get anyone no christmas presents and people are mad becuase they get me stuff, well **** it I don't need anything or want anything I wish I got nothing. My best friend called me today and is moving back to Chicago, partly becuase he pissed me off the other day for disappearing. Everybody just drops out of my life, I'm not used to being alone but really I am. In school I pretty much knew everyone around, 4 years later I'm all alone thanks to this SA shit. People think I'm cold becuase I'm hurt and never cry, like my grandpa was very important to me and he died 2 years ago and never shed a tear, so people act like I don't care. I'm too accustomed to pain that nothing really bothers me.
Damn I just need to go out and get completely wasted I want to get on a damn spaceship and leave this earth for awhile becuase the future is bleak, ya'll can keep the sunshine and save me the rain. I'm gone.
(No, this isn't suicidal, don't get this mixed up with that)
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