Hi there just wanted to make a comment. you mentioned GHB, I think I have tried something very similar to that.
I remember a few years ago, health supplement stores were selling something called RemedyGH, it was a clear liquid. Tasted like stale water really. This is when it was legal to carry it in stores.
I was told it was to aid in sleep and also promotes muscle, well being, kinda like the magic HGH. Nutritional aid.
I purchased a bottle. I took 1 times above the dosage. The feeling I had was that I felt extremely confident, had much motivation, was very focused in my conversation, and spoke intelligently about subjects. All I know is I felt different, like I was a new person. I think Remedy GH was a precursor or catalyst of producing hgh, dopamine in the body. Lasted about 3 hours.
Now thinking back, I feel if I would of taken the same effective dose for many weeks like prescription drugs for example, this would of probably been the most effective thing I have ever came across.
This stuff was eventually banned because of abuse and recreational use. I believe know it this was a form of GHB Gamma-Hydroxybutyric Acid.
Anyway just wanted to give my comment. I suffer from SAD pretty bad and it seemed to get worse as I got older. Most likely my brain produces less of the chemical I need as I get older unfortunately. So if people out there tell you its all in your head or you need tony robins in your life etc you can tell them to screw off. I truly believe people that suffer from SA is a physical chemical balance impairment.
I have many times told myself that a certain situation is going to be ok or what is there to worry about, I met these people before etc... But then Bam it hits you like a freight train and your totally getting all the SA symptoms out of no where and your thinking to yourself.. why is this happening?
I have tried everything too, all the ssri, snri, beta blockers, all the stuff your doctor wants you to try first, even though going to a different doctor they are so quick to prescribe the same damn thing because they are not specialists in this disorder. They just do what the commercial tells them to do and get a kickback for prescribing the new drug on the market that is less effective then what worked many years ago called Nardil.
Sorry if I sounded a little angry, didnt mean to, just been through alot lol.
So to end my long post. I have been taking klonopin 4mg a day which helps alot but not quite enough. I am trying the 6mg Emsam patch tommorow, if it fails my doctor says we will go with Nardil.
Thanks for listening
Mandalay