Dar10
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Wow, a social anxiety forum. This is great
I'm 19-year-old college student. I've had social anxiety for as long as I can remember and was told I had it a few years ago by a psychologist I went to. I've never met anyone with social anxiety before. I've had all the bad experiences...the blushing, the nervousness, everything. I get nervous waiting for my name to be called for attendance. I'm scared to death the first day of class because I'm around all new people. I can remember experiences of me almost crying in elementary school because I didn't want to read my journal in front of the class. I get nervous walking to class, which is something I don't think anyone understands. Waiting in line to buy books? Forget that, I go right before the bookstore closes so I can get in and out fast.
It took me a long time to get to know my roommates Freshmen year of college but once I did, they didn't understand why I didn't talk more. I know this sounds bad but the first time I got drunk (which was in college) I felt free for the first time. It was the first time in my life that I just stopped giving a shit. I just didn't care what people thought anymore. It was great.
I feel like I've missed out on a lot. I spent most of high school in front of a computer screen and I still do a lot of that. The only reason I went to parties in college last year was because I tagged along with my roommate. I always felt bad about tagging along because I knew without him I wouldn't even know where the parties were. Now he's found other people and I'm back to square one.
For most of my life I didn't know what was wrong with me. I thought I was just the shy kid that everyone ignored. Now I know what I have. The problem is that no one else thinks it's legitimate and I've only told 2 people about it because honestly, no one takes it seriously and no one cares.
I've never been a part of a group. Throughout my life, everyone I've known had their little group that they could rely and depend on. I've never had such a group. When I go home, I sit around and do nothing because I literally have maybe 1 friend from high school I can possibly hang out with.
I just wanted to tell you all my background and get your opinion on it. Sorry if this post isn't about anything specific.
I'm 19-year-old college student. I've had social anxiety for as long as I can remember and was told I had it a few years ago by a psychologist I went to. I've never met anyone with social anxiety before. I've had all the bad experiences...the blushing, the nervousness, everything. I get nervous waiting for my name to be called for attendance. I'm scared to death the first day of class because I'm around all new people. I can remember experiences of me almost crying in elementary school because I didn't want to read my journal in front of the class. I get nervous walking to class, which is something I don't think anyone understands. Waiting in line to buy books? Forget that, I go right before the bookstore closes so I can get in and out fast.
It took me a long time to get to know my roommates Freshmen year of college but once I did, they didn't understand why I didn't talk more. I know this sounds bad but the first time I got drunk (which was in college) I felt free for the first time. It was the first time in my life that I just stopped giving a shit. I just didn't care what people thought anymore. It was great.
I feel like I've missed out on a lot. I spent most of high school in front of a computer screen and I still do a lot of that. The only reason I went to parties in college last year was because I tagged along with my roommate. I always felt bad about tagging along because I knew without him I wouldn't even know where the parties were. Now he's found other people and I'm back to square one.
For most of my life I didn't know what was wrong with me. I thought I was just the shy kid that everyone ignored. Now I know what I have. The problem is that no one else thinks it's legitimate and I've only told 2 people about it because honestly, no one takes it seriously and no one cares.
I've never been a part of a group. Throughout my life, everyone I've known had their little group that they could rely and depend on. I've never had such a group. When I go home, I sit around and do nothing because I literally have maybe 1 friend from high school I can possibly hang out with.
I just wanted to tell you all my background and get your opinion on it. Sorry if this post isn't about anything specific.