blahh
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I'm a pretty rational person. When I think about the fact that I have to turn on my light ten million times before I go to bed (because something terrible will happen if I don't) I realize that this is irrational. But some tiny part of me thinks these compeltely crazy thoughts like: fate is uncontrollable, but what if certain people are born that are able to manipulate it through ocd, and they just get labeled as having a chemical imbalance. Like what if, by turning the lights on and off, I really AM repelling negative energy, and keeping bad things from happening. Some tiny part of me believe that somehow the universe is giving me glimpses into the future, of negative things that could happen, and by carrying out actions, I am preventing them.
I wish someone would just shake me and say "that is complete bullshit" because it is. I just can't convince myself completely and it's causing OCD to take over my life. Does anyone else have thoughts like mine?? How do you deal with them?? I am so sick of this!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wish someone would just shake me and say "that is complete bullshit" because it is. I just can't convince myself completely and it's causing OCD to take over my life. Does anyone else have thoughts like mine?? How do you deal with them?? I am so sick of this!!!!!!!!!!!!