LilMissTragic
Well-known member
I have always known I won't be totally over my SP but for about 6 months it has calmed down a lot. But...and theres always a but...it seems to have kicked in yet again. I don't know why, i didn't do anything different. I was just getting good with going out and about and talking a little when BAM!, its kicked in with a vengeance...Anyone esle had this???
Maybe because soon I will be moving, the whole life style will be very different as my bf will be joining the army and I will be living in army accomodation. I seem to have become insecure around people, paranoid too, which is odd as I was never that paranoid before. I don't want to take this stupid phobia with me as its going to be pretty socially based. I keep feeling i'm not good enough, that my Bf 's life will be more fulfilled and I will be stuck in my own little world. Geez, I hate this. I feel useless, ugly and I feel like I will probably hold him back.
Sorry to go on, Just needed to get it out of my system. Do you all feel like your making a fuss about nothing when you post on here?...I sure as hell do.
Maybe because soon I will be moving, the whole life style will be very different as my bf will be joining the army and I will be living in army accomodation. I seem to have become insecure around people, paranoid too, which is odd as I was never that paranoid before. I don't want to take this stupid phobia with me as its going to be pretty socially based. I keep feeling i'm not good enough, that my Bf 's life will be more fulfilled and I will be stuck in my own little world. Geez, I hate this. I feel useless, ugly and I feel like I will probably hold him back.
Sorry to go on, Just needed to get it out of my system. Do you all feel like your making a fuss about nothing when you post on here?...I sure as hell do.