I've been having these thoughts lately.
Some things that keep me from doing it are:
1. my religious belief that people who commit suicide end up going to hell and tortured for all of eternity
2. My family would fall apart and my parents would divorce and become alcoholics
3. My dog and really good friend would have no idea where I went and would be really sad
4. My life experiences would go to waste...including trips to Asia, Europe, Australia...15 countries total
5. People would remember me as "that weird kid that never had a lot of friends that committed suicide"
I'm sure there are others but I've just felt like crap lately and it just seems like I'm getting overwhelmed. I worry that I will never live up to the bars that I have set for myself and I feel like I'm letting down my family and friends. I feel like I will never be able to date a girl that I will feel truly happy with that cares about me and loves me I have OCD (mostly bdd related), social anxiety, and depression. I just quit a long habit of smoking way too much weed just about every day for a few months so that may be a factor as well....(please don't tell me it's not addictive because it is...)
I just graduated college and now I don't know what to do with myself
Some things that keep me from doing it are:
1. my religious belief that people who commit suicide end up going to hell and tortured for all of eternity
2. My family would fall apart and my parents would divorce and become alcoholics
3. My dog and really good friend would have no idea where I went and would be really sad
4. My life experiences would go to waste...including trips to Asia, Europe, Australia...15 countries total
5. People would remember me as "that weird kid that never had a lot of friends that committed suicide"
I'm sure there are others but I've just felt like crap lately and it just seems like I'm getting overwhelmed. I worry that I will never live up to the bars that I have set for myself and I feel like I'm letting down my family and friends. I feel like I will never be able to date a girl that I will feel truly happy with that cares about me and loves me I have OCD (mostly bdd related), social anxiety, and depression. I just quit a long habit of smoking way too much weed just about every day for a few months so that may be a factor as well....(please don't tell me it's not addictive because it is...)
I just graduated college and now I don't know what to do with myself