Thissucks!
Thissucks, i feel exactly the same as you, Im not religious in the slightest but i call god a shit head just in case he is listening for letting me wake up,This might sound really morbid, but i think about death a lot,cos it seems a pleasent thing compared to what most of us with sp/sa have to put up with. The thing i draw strength from is the hope that i will recover from it and to be able 2 do the things other peeps do and the things i use 2 take for granted. Also im a stubbon B*****d and refuse to let this s**t beat me.But i hope you or anyone else who feels the same can draw the strength from somthing to let u be able to struggle on