Suicide question
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I think about it a lot but never seriously, just because everything feels better if there's a way out. It doesn't mean that you are going to or want to use it. I don't know what I'd do if my family wasn't around though.
What scares me more is that I know I'm too scared to actually do anything like that, which means that the escape route isn't there any more. It's nice to have the thought of that escape route there, to keep you from going crazy, you know?
Having said that, I always wonder if I'm ever going to reach my next birthday.
What scares me more is that I know I'm too scared to actually do anything like that, which means that the escape route isn't there any more. It's nice to have the thought of that escape route there, to keep you from going crazy, you know?
Having said that, I always wonder if I'm ever going to reach my next birthday.
ClaudeBlair
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Josh90 said:
same here
I won't. One thing I will never to is purposely end my own life. I won't do anything to really slow it either, I'm just gonna let it happen as it does. I don't want to mess with stuff like this. Even when I feel I have no hope whatsoever, I still feel something for the tiniest thing that's there.
VioletTears
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If I had to answer yes or no I would say no... I think my son will keep me from following through on my thoughts. But I do WANT to do it daily and I have come close a few times so if something else major would happen it might destroy my judgement and it could happen.
I would never do it, no matter how bad things get. I remember a couple of years ago I was really depressed. My Mom had actually said to me "not to do anything stupid," because it's a cowardly way out of a problem. I know that me doing something so drastic would cause tremendous grief my family, and I could never forgive myself for that. There's a solution to every predicament, regardless of the severity. You only have one life...make the most of it!
theblank
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All I can say is that I HOPE I never kill myself. I've thought about it probably every day since I was about 13 or 14 years old. I have my moments where I get so down that I think that's it, I can't take living on this planet any more, but my faith in God keeps me going.
I hope no one on this board kills themself either. As hard as life can be sometimes with SA there is always SOMETHING worth living for. I was just reflecting earlier today that I'm glad I never killed myself because I've had some really great experiences that I never could have seen coming when I was in my darkest moments.
Stay alive. Keep fighting. It's worth it.
I hope no one on this board kills themself either. As hard as life can be sometimes with SA there is always SOMETHING worth living for. I was just reflecting earlier today that I'm glad I never killed myself because I've had some really great experiences that I never could have seen coming when I was in my darkest moments.
Stay alive. Keep fighting. It's worth it.
ripewithdecay
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I do think about it everyday.
And sometimes the loneliness and depression gets so bad that I really start to contemplate it. If I had a gun in the apartment...
The funny thing is, I don't think I fear death anymore.
The other day I was walking across the street and this car was moving very fast towards me, it didn't look like he or she was going to stop at all.
I stopped in the middle of the road, right in the car's path.
It got pretty close and the driver was probably angry that I didn't keep moving.
But I didn't feel afraid - at all. And that sort of disturbed me when I thought about it later on. I wonder if on a subconscious level I was willing that car to smash into me.
And sometimes the loneliness and depression gets so bad that I really start to contemplate it. If I had a gun in the apartment...
The funny thing is, I don't think I fear death anymore.
The other day I was walking across the street and this car was moving very fast towards me, it didn't look like he or she was going to stop at all.
I stopped in the middle of the road, right in the car's path.
It got pretty close and the driver was probably angry that I didn't keep moving.
But I didn't feel afraid - at all. And that sort of disturbed me when I thought about it later on. I wonder if on a subconscious level I was willing that car to smash into me.
Tryin
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suicide? possible. sometimes I go nuts and then I can do very irresponsible and stupid things. self-destructiveness in some form? we all do that. you know. the other... ways... of suicide. the ones when you don't necessarily destroy the body but you still do kill something - a potential, a relationship, an ambition, a part of yourself...
hbanana11
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I think about it all the time but i dont think id ever have the guts to do it. Plus, i dont think i ever could...it would hurt my parents and my sister so bad. I could never put that pain on them...so ill live in my misery forever because i love my family to much to hurt them 
