But how can I believe that?
I've been made fun of all my life. I got bullied at school. As grown up I've just been ignored. Some have made fun of me too. I have many times questioned my existence and if I really belong here. I have never been together with a girl. No girl has shown interest, and if I've tried, I just get rejected. I have not any close friends, and feel so lonely. The only people I talk to are my therapists, and my mom.
My therapists keeps on telling me that my thoughs are not true, I look normal and shouldnt feel like this. But as soon as I'm out of the office and met other people I feel like this crazy person who don't belong here. If I smile to someone they will look at me like I'm crazy. If I talk to someone, they will just seem angry or not respond at all. There is clearly a patern here, which proves that it's me.
I keep thinking that I can't really trust my therapists, because it's just their job. Their job is to get my confidence up, so they can get rid of me. They don't want anything to do with me after that. I know that a therapist and patient should not have a relationship. But I can't stop thinking it's me that it's something wrong with.
I've been made fun of all my life. I got bullied at school. As grown up I've just been ignored. Some have made fun of me too. I have many times questioned my existence and if I really belong here. I have never been together with a girl. No girl has shown interest, and if I've tried, I just get rejected. I have not any close friends, and feel so lonely. The only people I talk to are my therapists, and my mom.
My therapists keeps on telling me that my thoughs are not true, I look normal and shouldnt feel like this. But as soon as I'm out of the office and met other people I feel like this crazy person who don't belong here. If I smile to someone they will look at me like I'm crazy. If I talk to someone, they will just seem angry or not respond at all. There is clearly a patern here, which proves that it's me.
I keep thinking that I can't really trust my therapists, because it's just their job. Their job is to get my confidence up, so they can get rid of me. They don't want anything to do with me after that. I know that a therapist and patient should not have a relationship. But I can't stop thinking it's me that it's something wrong with.