..so..i had a pretty good day yesterday...went out to grocery store with a friend, convenience store, even went to friend's house to sit around pool for a while....pretty decent day overall....then, lying in bed last night....it hit me like a huge tidal wave...and settled in my stomach...huge pang of anxiety...and why?... i don't know....no reason i suppose...just the way it goes...up and down i guess...and i couldn't sleep...and i'm worrying about nothing...and everything...if that makes sense. :? ...and sometimes i wonder how much more energy and positive thinking and telling myself..."you can do this"," it won't be so bad", "don't dwell on the past", "my live is controlled by me and my choices"...that i have left ....:roll: ..sometimes i just feel so extremely exhausted with the whole thing.....sorry, i have been trying to post only positive stuff lately...and this is so unpositive....it's just you are the only people on earth that understand how i feel....thanks for "listening" :wink: