recluse
Well-known member
Being depressed is a major reason why I dont think about dating, also my shyness stops me, but even shy guys have girlfriends.
I have no motivation to be in a relationship and I am plagued by self hatred and thoughts like "who would want a loser like me?" Who in the right mind would want to be with someone who is so down on himself?
Basically my problems started at the age of 14 when I suffered from male anorexia, I then spent a year in therapy and took up cycling as a sport. So when all my peers were going through the stage in life of being interested in girls and having girlfriends I was too busy with recovering from anorexia and riding my bike.
I cant even feel good enough for friends let alone having a girlfriend, and I often wonder if I will ever get over my self hatred enough to live a normal life. I am 32 and I am nowhere near experiencing a relationship. Am I doomed to die a sad old virgin who's never been loved?
I have no motivation to be in a relationship and I am plagued by self hatred and thoughts like "who would want a loser like me?" Who in the right mind would want to be with someone who is so down on himself?
Basically my problems started at the age of 14 when I suffered from male anorexia, I then spent a year in therapy and took up cycling as a sport. So when all my peers were going through the stage in life of being interested in girls and having girlfriends I was too busy with recovering from anorexia and riding my bike.
I cant even feel good enough for friends let alone having a girlfriend, and I often wonder if I will ever get over my self hatred enough to live a normal life. I am 32 and I am nowhere near experiencing a relationship. Am I doomed to die a sad old virgin who's never been loved?