I'm 24 years old. Most of my life sucked. I always have bad luck. I have no friends, it's almost impoosible to make friends.
I'm not good looking. I have Asperger's Syndrome, so my social and communication skills suck (even more so than most Aspies). Most girls hate me a judge me just by looking at me, some it's quite obvious. They act like I don't exist, or like I'm a parasite. I don't do anything to them.
I also have no idea how I come off to people, so I can't detect my faults. I mess up a lot of things I say, people always misunderstand things I say, becuase of my communication abilities. I'm alwyas lonely, desperate for a friend. I've been searching for my soul mate, but haven't done a whole lot. I just keep dreaming of this perfect girl (she's perfect to me), becuase she actually like me, and supports me. It's just a dream.
I hate when I see people with friends, and all happy. I wish I could be like that. I hate when people say things like "best friends forever" and post pictures with the little sayings on them with their friends. Makes me more desparate and depressed. I get uneasy when I see an attractive girl. I get weak and feel like I'm taking a heart attack. I get a bad pain in my heart and pain shooting down my right arm. It is becuase I'm desperate and want to be with them, but I can't. Girls are my biggest weakness. I've been dreaming about being with a girl for a few years. I want to find true love.
I'm old fashioned. I'm like like anyone else my age. I don't like to get drunk and party. I never did drugs, I hardly ever drink, or smoke, which I guess is a good thing. So, that also makes it hard to fit in with people my age.
Most of my life is mistakes. Most things I do is mistakes, whther it's something I say, or do.
I get really, really bad canker sores on my tongue, which is really painful (like someone put sultpheric acid on my tongue). I had them since childhood, and they would usually come once or twice a year, but for the [ast 2-3 years, I getten bombarded by them (one after the other), my tongue only gets better for a couple of days usually. I think it could be the stress and frustration of being lonely and wanting a friend.
The only thing good in my life is that I live in a good in my life, is I live in Canada, I live in a good house, good family and have a car. I was successful at passing school, but barely. I passed my drivers test.
My life sucks. I'm always miserable and in pain (wehther it be physcially, or emotionally). I often have cry a lot before I sleep. I can't get a job, becuase of these canker sores, and I can't stay ona decent sleep scheduale. I have bad insomnia I had ever since I was a kid. Trouble falling asleep.
I hardly ever get satisfaction in life. I don't have much emotions. I lost them during depression a few years ago. I can just feel the bad emotions. It's rare that I can feel happy or excited.
The world is so different, and it's hard for me to understand things, becuase I understand and see things differently. There is so much negative in my life. I kinda draw it, becuase I'm lonely and kinda desperate for a friend or girl friend.
Sorry for any spelling mistakes, I've typed this sorta fast.
I'm not good looking. I have Asperger's Syndrome, so my social and communication skills suck (even more so than most Aspies). Most girls hate me a judge me just by looking at me, some it's quite obvious. They act like I don't exist, or like I'm a parasite. I don't do anything to them.
I also have no idea how I come off to people, so I can't detect my faults. I mess up a lot of things I say, people always misunderstand things I say, becuase of my communication abilities. I'm alwyas lonely, desperate for a friend. I've been searching for my soul mate, but haven't done a whole lot. I just keep dreaming of this perfect girl (she's perfect to me), becuase she actually like me, and supports me. It's just a dream.
I hate when I see people with friends, and all happy. I wish I could be like that. I hate when people say things like "best friends forever" and post pictures with the little sayings on them with their friends. Makes me more desparate and depressed. I get uneasy when I see an attractive girl. I get weak and feel like I'm taking a heart attack. I get a bad pain in my heart and pain shooting down my right arm. It is becuase I'm desperate and want to be with them, but I can't. Girls are my biggest weakness. I've been dreaming about being with a girl for a few years. I want to find true love.
I'm old fashioned. I'm like like anyone else my age. I don't like to get drunk and party. I never did drugs, I hardly ever drink, or smoke, which I guess is a good thing. So, that also makes it hard to fit in with people my age.
Most of my life is mistakes. Most things I do is mistakes, whther it's something I say, or do.
I get really, really bad canker sores on my tongue, which is really painful (like someone put sultpheric acid on my tongue). I had them since childhood, and they would usually come once or twice a year, but for the [ast 2-3 years, I getten bombarded by them (one after the other), my tongue only gets better for a couple of days usually. I think it could be the stress and frustration of being lonely and wanting a friend.
The only thing good in my life is that I live in a good in my life, is I live in Canada, I live in a good house, good family and have a car. I was successful at passing school, but barely. I passed my drivers test.
My life sucks. I'm always miserable and in pain (wehther it be physcially, or emotionally). I often have cry a lot before I sleep. I can't get a job, becuase of these canker sores, and I can't stay ona decent sleep scheduale. I have bad insomnia I had ever since I was a kid. Trouble falling asleep.
I hardly ever get satisfaction in life. I don't have much emotions. I lost them during depression a few years ago. I can just feel the bad emotions. It's rare that I can feel happy or excited.
The world is so different, and it's hard for me to understand things, becuase I understand and see things differently. There is so much negative in my life. I kinda draw it, becuase I'm lonely and kinda desperate for a friend or girl friend.
Sorry for any spelling mistakes, I've typed this sorta fast.