Warning...this topic mentions things of a sexual nature (but I won't go into too much detail).
I'm very much in love with a wonderful man and wanting to be as faithful to him as anyone could possibly be.
I'm afraid of men on the street or on the bus touching me even accidentally, so I avoid them.
Before I met the man of my dreams, I had had a fling with a sleazy guy who took advantage of me.
Today, I found the phone that I used back in those days. I just wanted to have a look at the mp3 files on it. I remembered that the jerk's number might still be on there, but I was planning on deleting it if I saw it.
But after I touched it, I became really anxious because I remembered something....
It was well over a year ago (maybe two years...I can't remember), but on the day that I did sexual things with that guy, I used my phone afterward to call a friend. I touched the phone after I'd touched his...you know. I know it was a long time ago...and if there was any trace of anything from him, it probably would have been rubbed off with my hands in the times that I used the phone since then. I'm not even sure I used the same hand to use the phone...but I might have.
I ask myself "Why didn't you think of that before you touched it?" But I had anxious thoughts along the lines of, "maybe the thought had occurred to you, but you dismissed it because you didn't think it would matter."
I don't think I really thought of that before...I think I was more concerned about the fact that his phone number was on there.
Anyway, I was worried about whether it was unfaithful to touch that phone when it might have traces of his DNA or something.
I know the guy didn't come in my hand on that first day and i don't think he did the other time, either...so MAYBE the most it might be is just sweat from that area...but I'm not sure I remember all the details.
I think I might have even cleaned the phone since then, but I might not have.
I feel stupid for not thinking of this stuff before I picked the phone up.
How can I get over this?
I know I used the phone since that time, so my hand probably would have wiped the traces of, if there were any. Not to mention, the purse that I was using at the time...which I don't even use anymore and might have even thrown out.
But I don't know for sure.
I told my boyfriend and he doesn't see it as unfaithful and he is very understanding. I just want to make sure I'm treating him right and being a good girlfriend.
I'm sorry if some of the stuff in this post seems like TMI.
I'm very much in love with a wonderful man and wanting to be as faithful to him as anyone could possibly be.
I'm afraid of men on the street or on the bus touching me even accidentally, so I avoid them.
Before I met the man of my dreams, I had had a fling with a sleazy guy who took advantage of me.
Today, I found the phone that I used back in those days. I just wanted to have a look at the mp3 files on it. I remembered that the jerk's number might still be on there, but I was planning on deleting it if I saw it.
But after I touched it, I became really anxious because I remembered something....
It was well over a year ago (maybe two years...I can't remember), but on the day that I did sexual things with that guy, I used my phone afterward to call a friend. I touched the phone after I'd touched his...you know. I know it was a long time ago...and if there was any trace of anything from him, it probably would have been rubbed off with my hands in the times that I used the phone since then. I'm not even sure I used the same hand to use the phone...but I might have.
I ask myself "Why didn't you think of that before you touched it?" But I had anxious thoughts along the lines of, "maybe the thought had occurred to you, but you dismissed it because you didn't think it would matter."
I don't think I really thought of that before...I think I was more concerned about the fact that his phone number was on there.
Anyway, I was worried about whether it was unfaithful to touch that phone when it might have traces of his DNA or something.
I know the guy didn't come in my hand on that first day and i don't think he did the other time, either...so MAYBE the most it might be is just sweat from that area...but I'm not sure I remember all the details.
I think I might have even cleaned the phone since then, but I might not have.
I feel stupid for not thinking of this stuff before I picked the phone up.
How can I get over this?
I know I used the phone since that time, so my hand probably would have wiped the traces of, if there were any. Not to mention, the purse that I was using at the time...which I don't even use anymore and might have even thrown out.
But I don't know for sure.
I told my boyfriend and he doesn't see it as unfaithful and he is very understanding. I just want to make sure I'm treating him right and being a good girlfriend.
I'm sorry if some of the stuff in this post seems like TMI.