Daytona_girl87
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I think for me it was growing up in a very strict religion(Jehovah's Witness) and also the fact I grew up poor due to the fact my dad was schizophrenic and on disability. My mom really couldn't work outside the home because he was a full time job and also my older sister sister is bipolar, so she had her hands full with them. Also the religion I grew up was very restrictive and my parents were pretty fanatical at times and I would get in trouble for talking to boys since boys and girls aren't supposed to socialize. I also never had birthday parties or celebrated any holiday because of the religion and was teased a lot because of that in school. I did end up making a few friends at school, but because they weren't Jehovah's Witnesses they didn't work out. I did have one very good Jehovah's witness friend that died in 2008 and she was my only childhood friend.
Now, I'm 27 and an adult and always thought my life we would be so much better as a grown up, but I still deal with poverty and whenever I manged to make a friend as an adult it just doesn't work out. Most people my age have at least a few friends and I'm always on the bottom of the hierarchy of friendships. Even when I've had friends as an adult it's hard to keep up with the social aspect of things like lunches, dining out, movies, shopping together,etc because I was always lacking money.
Now, I'm 27 and an adult and always thought my life we would be so much better as a grown up, but I still deal with poverty and whenever I manged to make a friend as an adult it just doesn't work out. Most people my age have at least a few friends and I'm always on the bottom of the hierarchy of friendships. Even when I've had friends as an adult it's hard to keep up with the social aspect of things like lunches, dining out, movies, shopping together,etc because I was always lacking money.