I thought I was safe from my fears that I was a pedophile. I decided to test myself out, by thinking about little kids in sexual poses. I tried masturbating to those thoughts. My reasoning was this: if I ejaculated or experienced an erection, I should assume that I AM a pedophile. If I didn't feel anything, and instead thought "that's just gross", then I am safe.
The result was terrifying. I DID think that what I was thinking was disgusting. However, I experienced an erection, and was close to ejaculating.
I read about groinal response here on the forum, but I don't think this is it. I also read that groinal response is more like a tingling feeling...what I experienced was a full-on erection.
Does this mean that I AM a pedophile? I don't want to be this way! I would seriously kill myself before harming a kid.
The result was terrifying. I DID think that what I was thinking was disgusting. However, I experienced an erection, and was close to ejaculating.
I read about groinal response here on the forum, but I don't think this is it. I also read that groinal response is more like a tingling feeling...what I experienced was a full-on erection.
Does this mean that I AM a pedophile? I don't want to be this way! I would seriously kill myself before harming a kid.
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