Theres alot of interesting things in here.
I got bullied in primary school and secondary school... initially i started off running away and hiding... but thats not something you can do infinitely... somewhere along the line, i just started getting really angry, and reacted to everything violently, though i did at least always warn first. it was because they'd never seem to stop. there was no, thats enough lets go from them.. it was always just more and more and didnt stop until they had to go.
during primary school something similar constantly happened to me, teachers would step in, and everything i said would be discounted as a lie, whilst the bullies always got off. my parents always believed teachers naturally...
well, the problem ended once in primary school, and then once in secondary school (in secondary school i had a whole new set of bullies, which was further proof that it was something about me that was fucked up). each time cos i tried to off myself.. bullies start seeing the resuls of their actions if their pretty extreme. dont try that, or to fake it..
i dont really have any advice that good for you because i dont think alot of what i have done is exactly sound, but really id just like to tell you about me.. because i think its similar..
"Bullies are good at manupilating people. They are very good at making you look bad. They are just having fun or doing their job or something else. They have plenty excuses.Believe or not people don't want trouble so they let them get away with it."
I fear i may have stared into the abyss too much.. as i became more pessimistic, i learned cynicism and more about reality.. as my being bullied was centered around being physically and mentally weak, and lacking control over my emotions (never mind my hair of my name that i still hate), i decided to survive the world around me through mind games. it started off with fake expressions... then i did ALOT of meditation, with a focus on learning to do it quickly so i could hide and surpress emotions. i started reading crime books, watching people around me obsessively, memorizing their habits and weaknesses... i still do, and im not brilliant at it yet, and ive come on a long way. i hide this paranoia telling people i just like feeling like a detective.. i even do it with friends, everyone around me. observing everything, and cross referencing their words with others so i know if someone is lying to me..
i got my first friend because i saw an oppurtunity. i started to always be around her, watching what others would say, if others were kind or nasty.. always reporting on backstabbing friends, and saying the right things afterwards.. lying when saying kind things, not having the knowledge to back them up.. i did manipulate em into a friendship, and it helped me survive for some time, but it wasnt a friendship that could truly last.
at university, i study music (jazz)... and im in my opinion one of the least good pianists on the course.. i compensate for my lack of abilities, through what amounts to being a manipulative bastard... and others dont know it... i think this time i do have true friends.. but i dont deserve them.. especially when i think that cunning is my most important trait. i made it so, but why do i always feel this nausea whenever my situations are made good?
i suppose its because all the positive things people see in me that i have cultivated are illusions.
but i digress...
whatever happens, i dont think you should just let yourself get abused... it obviously doesnt make you happy, and its not like you dont mind... dont give up... log their conversations. print their emails. make a file full of them... take screenshots of the conversations happening in msn or email, so that its impossible to say you've edited them ... then make a folder of it...
what you do next is up to you. it could be go to the teacher with highest authority... maybe you could try some kind of child help service, or the police... what i'd do however is look into that, find out if theres anything illegal, and then start blackmailing the bullies. it'd be fun..
if not that, when your telling whoever you tell about the bullies, WITH your evidence that you shouldnt need, but life is shit so you do... make sure to tell them about how much you want to die (regardless of whether you do or not)... guilt is very painful.. and making people deserving feel it, is quite righteous
its obvious i hold 'two wrongs don't make a right' in distain