Anonymous
Well-known member
Hey everyone.
I had to get this horrible story off my chest, for a few reasons. One being, I just need to tell someone, secondly, Im hoping some of you guys might have some answers.
Last week I applied for a job and was hired right away. They asked me to come in for my orientation today. So when I went in, everything was fine, I was understandably a bit nervous. The boss was just talking about his background and introducing himself. Then he asked us to introduce ourselves. I was in the second row, most likely Id say 5th or 6th to do it. For some wierd reason, my heart started pounding, and I was looking for excuses to leave. Then the third guy was talking, and as soon as he was done, my head started spinning, I had no idea what to do, I was sweating like crazy too. Then I could hear the next guy talking, and I didn't know if I was up next. All I could remember was looking around and seeing about 30 blurry faces. I couldnt take it anymore, so without saying a word, I just got up and left the room. I also left a great job for an 18 y/o. I always knew I had SA, but until this day I never ever realized how bad it was. I believe that god will heal me from it, but for now Ive found myself I horrible shape today. The worst part is, that looking back at that, I cant picture myself doing it, my heart just pounds thinking about doing it.
So some questions I had are..
Why would I just freak out all of a sudden like that(keeping in mind I do have SA, but have never freaked out that bad)?
What is there to cure this, or if not cure, atleast control it so I can atleast get another job like that?
And finally, can anyone please share similar stories and ways you got over it, if you did?
Thanks alot in advance everyone!!
I had to get this horrible story off my chest, for a few reasons. One being, I just need to tell someone, secondly, Im hoping some of you guys might have some answers.
Last week I applied for a job and was hired right away. They asked me to come in for my orientation today. So when I went in, everything was fine, I was understandably a bit nervous. The boss was just talking about his background and introducing himself. Then he asked us to introduce ourselves. I was in the second row, most likely Id say 5th or 6th to do it. For some wierd reason, my heart started pounding, and I was looking for excuses to leave. Then the third guy was talking, and as soon as he was done, my head started spinning, I had no idea what to do, I was sweating like crazy too. Then I could hear the next guy talking, and I didn't know if I was up next. All I could remember was looking around and seeing about 30 blurry faces. I couldnt take it anymore, so without saying a word, I just got up and left the room. I also left a great job for an 18 y/o. I always knew I had SA, but until this day I never ever realized how bad it was. I believe that god will heal me from it, but for now Ive found myself I horrible shape today. The worst part is, that looking back at that, I cant picture myself doing it, my heart just pounds thinking about doing it.
So some questions I had are..
Why would I just freak out all of a sudden like that(keeping in mind I do have SA, but have never freaked out that bad)?
What is there to cure this, or if not cure, atleast control it so I can atleast get another job like that?
And finally, can anyone please share similar stories and ways you got over it, if you did?
Thanks alot in advance everyone!!