It's frustrating because whenever I saw someone lonely, I tried talking to them and start a little conversation. But it rarely happened the other way. I guess due to the vibes I might have been sending, people rarely told me in class while I was sitting alone "hey, come hang out with us.." Maybe I looked stuck up or selfish. In reality, I was ACHING for someone to just tell me, "let's hang out".
The one or two times it did happen that people asked me to hang out, I STUPIDLY declined.
Also, if I would've been just a little more talkative, I'm sure I could've made friends... one of the worst things of SA is the level of regret I carry with myself. I just can't get over the fact that a lot of my life's problems could've been dealt with if I just tried a LITTLE harder.