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Lea

Lea

Banned
KiaKaha said:
No. I am just saying that I am always on the defensive with everyone all the time - and I don't know why. Either I am incredibly stupid and no nothing about anything - or I am a deeply flawed weak individual... and whats more I get the feeling that there is a smug sense of satisfaction from people attempting to put me in my place. I never actually thought that everything that I felt - is seemingly so incorrect. I feel like every thought I have - I have to question it's validity. I am actually beginning to think that I might be a little simple. I actually used to think that I was a pretty decent person who stood up for good values - to look out for others, to protect and be patient with people. to be a good person.

Now... I don't know. Now I think - I just have it all wrong - Now I think my personality is flawed. That anything I do or say - is just wrong. I also feel like I am not taken seriously, nothing I say is worth anything and anything I do is unappreciated and pointless and has some kind of ulterior motive to it. But most of all - I simply feel stupid.

Happy 2013.
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You still seem to repeat the same old crap but that´s not the way! I can see it isn´t. I think I would know how to at least show you the right path but you don´t see me as worthy of discussion. I guess it´s because you ask questions, but don´t want to be even slightly challenged about anything. You don´t seem to like the idea of discussing with someone as equals, it seems to me like you just want to hold on to your status quo which somehow retains you superiority, but don´t want to just open up and sincerely discuss the matter with people as equals. Instead working deeply with others through the issue discussed, you run away and then complain in the corner that noone likes and understands you. Did you do this test for example as I suggested yesterday Narcissistic Personality Disorder 101 Quiz : Melanie Tonia Evans

It could everyone at least make think and realize what they have problem with. That´s why I like tests generally. But I´ve never seen you do ANY on this site (oh except of the Myerst Briggs, sorry). Some people never do tests, it seems to me like they think they are better than others or think of the tests in a condescending way. Well of course it is nothing written in stone, but as I said, at least it makes people think and besides is fun.

You talk nicely, about equality and such, but I can´t help feeling there is something dark inside you, like a time bomb? Words are words, but somehow the reality behind it can be a bit different. Or partly maybe you´re ill inside which makes you avoid the challenge.. Probably you crave challenge in a way, because subconsciously you know it is the only thing that could help you to get rid of your demons (that´s why you´re writing a lot and ask a lot questions), but on the other hand are fearing it like hell and it makes you escaping it. Wanting to catch on to you and make you face it and work through it is like chasing a soap in water :D. I am not implying that I am all knowing or superior saying this, I am just sincerely saying what I think and feel. Is that bad? You came here on this forum asking us laic people so you must take in account we are no professionals. (But at the same time, even the professionals are not infallible).

Take this as my inner monologue without censorship. It may sound weird to you or some other people, but I´m just sorting out my thoughts about the matter Kiakaha :).
 
Phoenixx

Phoenixx

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Tired and anxious. I barely got any sleep last night -- long and ridiculous story.

The good news is I made a phone call this morning and scheduled a vet appointment for my cat. I haven't scheduled an appointment for anything in almost a year, I almost always have someone else do it for me because talking on the phone makes me so incredibly nervous. But I did it, my last accomplishment for 2012. I suppose I should be happy.
 
Nanita

Nanita

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Phoenixx said:
Tired and anxious. I barely got any sleep last night -- long and ridiculous story.

The good news is I made a phone call this morning and scheduled a vet appointment for my cat. I haven't scheduled an appointment for anything in almost a year, I almost always have someone else do it for me because talking on the phone makes me so incredibly nervous. But I did it, my last accomplishment for 2012. I suppose I should be happy.
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Great.. I hope your cat will be well. I feel the same about making appointments, it´s not easy.

richardtj said:
I've just joined this site and community so I feel hopeful / good :)
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Welcome .... I hope it will bring u good things
 
takeheart

takeheart

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See I recently got facebook and I added a few friends. But when I look at some their pictures I kind of feel stressed. Seeing them have good time out and about whilst I’m doing absolutely nothing makes me feel bad man. That’s when you see other people have a life whilst I don’t. Anyone else with facebook feel this?
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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superTn said:
See I recently got facebook and I added a few friends. But when I look at some their pictures I kind of feel stressed. Seeing them have good time out and about whilst I’m doing absolutely nothing makes me feel bad man. That’s when you see other people have a life whilst I don’t. Anyone else with facebook feel this?
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I know how that feels, I'm not sure what else to say except I hope things get better.
richardtj said:
I've just joined this site and community so I feel hopeful / good :)
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Welcome to the forum. :)
Phoenixx said:
Tired and anxious. I barely got any sleep last night -- long and ridiculous story.

The good news is I made a phone call this morning and scheduled a vet appointment for my cat. I haven't scheduled an appointment for anything in almost a year, I almost always have someone else do it for me because talking on the phone makes me so incredibly nervous. But I did it, my last accomplishment for 2012. I suppose I should be happy.
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That's great Phoenixx. I get incredibly anxious making calls as well. Its new year here now and I made a few phone calls so I feel a little accomplished. :D
I hope you're cat's okay.
 
Nanita

Nanita

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I have a sore throat as usual. Constantly ill.
I´m feeling annoyed and nervous because of all the noise from the new years fireworks. I can´t stand new years, it´s too noisy. And I didn´t have anywhere to go on new years so I´m just alone and being depressed that my life has no happiness or meaning.
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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Nanita said:
I have a sore throat as usual. Constantly ill.
I´m feeling annoyed and nervous because of all the noise from the new years fireworks. I can´t stand new years, it´s too noisy. And I didn´t have anywhere to go on new years so I´m just alone and being depressed that my life has no happiness or meaning.
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I'm sorry, is there anyway to distract yourself from everything? Maybe reading a book or listening to some music? I hope you feel better soon. *hugs*
 
Nanita

Nanita

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Srijita52 said:
I'm sorry, is there anyway to distract yourself from everything? Maybe reading a book or listening to some music? I hope you feel better soon. *hugs*
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Thank you ...
Yeah I´m able to cheer myself up doing random things, there´s always things to do. but I guess I dwell on the depressed mood because it feels true and honest, whereas cheering myself up and doing things, feels kind of fake I guess..
 
Opaline

Opaline

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Nervous, excited, hopeful, worried. Pretty much everything you feel when you're contemplating a major life decision. Do I have it in me to do this?
 
Phoenixx

Phoenixx

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Nanita said:
Great.. I hope your cat will be well. I feel the same about making appointments, it´s not easy.
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Srijita52 said:
That's great Phoenixx. I get incredibly anxious making calls as well. Its new year here now and I made a few phone calls so I feel a little accomplished. :D
I hope you're cat's okay.
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^ Thanks ladies. I've been having the worst of thoughts running through my head about him all day. It's really just my anxiety on overdrive, it's not like he's gravely ill and he's certainly not dying. Well, he's definitely not acting like it anyway. He's still as lazy as ever and eats as fine as he has been. I did notice his anxiety has been increasing though. He just has a large bald spot because he suddenly started ripping out fur. The skin is not infected, but now becoming chapped from him licking it and the cold doesn't help, and my treatments haven't been working. Whatever's causing him to react like that, I'll find out Wednesday.
 
Nanita

Nanita

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Phoenixx said:
^ Thanks ladies. I've been having the worst of thoughts running through my head about him all day. It's really just my anxiety on overdrive, it's not like he's gravely ill and he's certainly not dying. Well, he's definitely not acting like it anyway. He's still as lazy as ever and eats as fine as he has been. I did notice his anxiety has been increasing though. He just has a large bald spot because he suddenly started ripping out fur. The skin is not infected, but now becoming chapped from him licking it and the cold doesn't help, and my treatments haven't been working. Whatever's causing him to react like that, I'll find out Wednesday.
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Aww :sad: best wishes for the cat
 
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