this_portrait
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Sort of calming down, a little. Lemon tea helps.
How are you feeling?
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neardeath
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psychiatrist assessment tomorrow i am feeling soooo anxious and panicked right now im not sure if i will be able to talk and say the important things i need to
Write down the important stuff, so you don't have to make another contact after the fact.
dottie
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mentally unstable
the slightest things set me off into a batsh!t spiral
in the moment of my raging-delusion i see it as others' fault that i am going over the edge
(despite the fact it is my own problem-overreaction)
so i desperately grasp at their shirt and drag them down the fall with me
the next day i am embarrassed.
i want too much control... so i have none
the abandon i experience is brought on by myself
who wants to be around this?
gross.
maybe i could focus on making others feel better instead of being so concerned with how i feel... that is how i need to live this day.
the slightest things set me off into a batsh!t spiral
in the moment of my raging-delusion i see it as others' fault that i am going over the edge
(despite the fact it is my own problem-overreaction)
so i desperately grasp at their shirt and drag them down the fall with me
the next day i am embarrassed.
i want too much control... so i have none
the abandon i experience is brought on by myself
who wants to be around this?
gross.
maybe i could focus on making others feel better instead of being so concerned with how i feel... that is how i need to live this day.
I'm obsessing over that class. I feel the urge to rebel. I want to show my "controllers" I won't follow their plans. I want to stay mute and quiet in class so that I'm neither improving in social skills or making friends. This is the same thing that I did several years ago in my classes. I don't want to try, because I don't want to make my controllers happy. As long as they keep trying to control me, I will keep disappointing them. I want them out of my life, once and for all. Not that they care.
MikeyC
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neardeath is right. Write down what you want to say now so if you get flustered during the assessment, you can consult it and read from it. You'll be okay. :thumbup:psychiatrist assessment tomorrow i am feeling soooo anxious and panicked right now im not sure if i will be able to talk and say the important things i need to
Last time I wasted a part of my summer away worrying about a mandatory official event in August which turned out to be traumatic for me. I had to go, no way out. I was so "lucky" to be picked it's not even funny. Before the event, I wasted about 1.5 months obsessing over it. Not a day goes by without me thinking about what to wear, how to present myself, how to not get "lucky" again, how to be invisible, what to say, etc. I spent hours scouring the internet for info, sometimes visiting the same pages again. I even rehearsed in my head and cried several times. Finally the event came and as expected, it was horrible and much worse.
Now I have an even bigger event to prepare for. Will I waste away my summer worrying and crying over it everyday?
Now I have an even bigger event to prepare for. Will I waste away my summer worrying and crying over it everyday?
Feeling much better now. Suicide: Read This First is a good resource. I just realized how mentally weak I am. I think I have PTSD from what happened in the past. Even a slight insult from other people can shake me to the core. I missed the times before college when I was stronger and had more courage. Now I feel so weak and useless as a PTSD ridden survivor.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Christ on f**kin' moped! :ironicsmile: Nae offense intended, there. Anyway... Ah woke up in a less than f**kin' cheery, Happy-go-f**k-yersel' mood the day. Just, ach... tae f**k wi' it! :kickingmyself: Ah feel like a f**kin' retard half the time, especially when ah open ma gob and utter what few syliables - (ah think ah've spelt that right? F**k knows... cannae be arsed tae whap oot the dictionary - lazy eejit that ah am!) - ah can. F**kin' dough heid! h:
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neardeath
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Christ on f**kin' moped! :ironicsmile: Nae offense intended, there. Anyway... Ah woke up in a less than f**kin' cheery, Happy-go-f**k-yersel' mood the day. Just, ach... tae f**k wi' it! :kickingmyself: Ah feel like a f**kin' retard half the time, especially when ah open ma gob and utter what few syliables - (ah think ah've spelt that right? F**k knows... cannae be arsed tae whap oot the dictionary - lazy eejit that ah am!) - ah can. F**kin' dough heid!
Good day to you, my friend. Don't be so hard on yourself!
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Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Good day to you, my friend. Don't be so hard on yourself!
Ah'll try an' no be so hard on masel'... sexual innuendo aside, obviously.
Jokin' aside...It's quite difficult, though, especially when yer gettin' unintentional laughs when yer upset. But then ah should be use tae gettin' laughed at - happens 98% o' the time. Unintentional laughs by default of the accent and being Scottish, ah guess. Naebody tae ye seriously - well, that's ma experience fur the maist part. Ah, the comedy career might still be within reach, eh? :sarcastic: *sarcasm there.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Much appreciated, mate. :thumbup:
I'm confused. There's this girl who knows I have social anxiety (I didn't tell her directly but she must have known from observation). She keeps on saying "no one's looking at you" when I'm in the vicinity. And when I walked past, I heard her say "Nobody likes you". It makes me want to stay in my room even more. I feel even more self conscious that she's pointing out my anxieties to people and in turn, possibly making them wary of me.
chev
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I hate when people have to be like that. People are so rude and insensitive to people with anxiety. I don't know why they have to be that way. If they had something they were self-conscious about, they wouldn't want people pointing it out either. Not sure where you're running into this girl, but if it's possible, listen to music when you're near her so you don't have to listen hear her negative comments.
I know, and seeing it done to others makes me sick because it reminds me of the mental and emotional torment I had to go through. I wish I had the power to stop it but feel so helpless.
I mentioned this before but I think there's a bunch of people who's trying to set me up with a much older guy who happens to be married. And I am just sick and tired of it. I am a big fan of his wife and feel bad about it. It's all so weird because I don't even have feelings for this guy but these people are urging me to go for it. I have a conscience so I'm not gonna do anything that compromises my character and integrity. I hope this will all be over soon.