I have thought about the subject, suicide, but I've never considered doing it myself. But that's not for selfish reasons - maybe sometimes I do wish, I wasn't born, but still it would kill me to hurt my family like that. My father, my mother, my brother, my uncle, my grandmother would all just be miserable, as I would if I lost them. And besides them I do have some people who would be very sad if I left earth.
But had my family not been so supportive, I would have probably jumped off a building by now. I would miss them everyday, if I had to live without them.
On the other hand I don't see a bright future - the older you get the more do people tend to go with their beloved once, but if I never find someone like that, I'm going to die alone, and that's what makes me cry every single night. I do have friends about once a week but I still feel so damn lonely in my apartment.