recluse
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I'm plagued by horrible thoughts which follow me around whenever i am awake..The only time i am truly away from the thoughts is when i am asleep
My thoughts are like an annoying person who won't shut up....The only difference if it was an annoying person i could just walk away o'r cover my ears...I keep busy and listen to music but my thoughts always find a way to creep back and say ''HEY YOU CAN'T IGNORE US!''
My main thought is of hurting weaker people than me; Women, children, babies, old people. Yesterday my sister gave birth to her first baby, and all of the sudden i had this image pop into my head that i was going to hurt the baby. This is very upsetting for me to live with, and even though i despise the images and thoughts i replay them in my head.
Another common persistent thought i get is a certain word (usually sexual) and then i repeat it in my mind untill it eventually disappears. Sometimes i will have one word stuck in my mind for months on end!
Why do i replay thoughts in my head when they hurt me so much? Why can't i realise that that the only way to get these thoughts out is to not think about them?
My thoughts are like an annoying person who won't shut up....The only difference if it was an annoying person i could just walk away o'r cover my ears...I keep busy and listen to music but my thoughts always find a way to creep back and say ''HEY YOU CAN'T IGNORE US!''
My main thought is of hurting weaker people than me; Women, children, babies, old people. Yesterday my sister gave birth to her first baby, and all of the sudden i had this image pop into my head that i was going to hurt the baby. This is very upsetting for me to live with, and even though i despise the images and thoughts i replay them in my head.
Another common persistent thought i get is a certain word (usually sexual) and then i repeat it in my mind untill it eventually disappears. Sometimes i will have one word stuck in my mind for months on end!
Why do i replay thoughts in my head when they hurt me so much? Why can't i realise that that the only way to get these thoughts out is to not think about them?