wonderlife
New member
Hi all,
I am new new in this site.
Hereby, i would like to express how painfull it is to have facial blushing.
I am 30 yo guy with a very profound backrgound. I am educated, good natured, and even wealthy person in this life. I have my family, wife and 2 kids. But all above 'must-feel-happy' features can not help me fighting with so painfull shyness and facial blusing.
The problem is that i loose my control in social situations. Usually, I cause my shynes mainly myself. The thing is sometimes i do nut blush at all and even can make a very good jokes with people. I feel even they never think that i am a blusher.
But sometimes even in a very mild situations this social phobia just attacks me and i feel inside, 'or please no one talk to me otherwise i go flush to death ...and it happens".
Example 1:
I am waiting in front of reception to enter to the boss's cabinet. There are 3 of us - me, a secretary and the other colleage. We are just talking in low voice in front of reception with mild smiles and kiddings.
Suddenly, my heart starts beating and i start nervous out of blue, not from colleages yet. Then my colleage just looks at me and keep on just talking and smiling as a natural. But, somehow, I feel hot in my face. Loose consious and control, somehow try not to show it, but....
Then the guy just remarks to secretary that my face is red. My mouse is shut. I want to run away or just disappear. .. My redface... well i think tomato is more bright than my face.
The thing if i am alone i could say why i blush? there is no reason. Or say I could laugh back? However, how come.. if you loose your control....
Example 2:
I need to have a deal with another girl in the office. But whenever, i see that girl even if i had not blushed all the day, talking to many people, I blush to death contacting to her. I feel she is inside me and reads my mind. However, i have no any bad intention toward her..
Overall...
I blush almost all the time if one flatters me..
I mostly blush among the acquaitant people rather than new people.
I loose contol and blush to ask a favor from my boss if he/she is strict.
Finally, i blush whenever i pre-feel that i would blush..boosting it worse...
Sometimes, i even cry inside and feel so blue why such a nice person, so talanted, good human natured 'man' has to be so down. If only there would not be such 'illness' he could reach a very high positions in real life and help a lot to people.
Sorry, if i made you bored by my sad story, but i thought it would help some people who have the similar experience..Because during 30 years of my life i have not met any people who could have the problem to my level...
I am new new in this site.
Hereby, i would like to express how painfull it is to have facial blushing.
I am 30 yo guy with a very profound backrgound. I am educated, good natured, and even wealthy person in this life. I have my family, wife and 2 kids. But all above 'must-feel-happy' features can not help me fighting with so painfull shyness and facial blusing.
The problem is that i loose my control in social situations. Usually, I cause my shynes mainly myself. The thing is sometimes i do nut blush at all and even can make a very good jokes with people. I feel even they never think that i am a blusher.
But sometimes even in a very mild situations this social phobia just attacks me and i feel inside, 'or please no one talk to me otherwise i go flush to death ...and it happens".
Example 1:
I am waiting in front of reception to enter to the boss's cabinet. There are 3 of us - me, a secretary and the other colleage. We are just talking in low voice in front of reception with mild smiles and kiddings.
Suddenly, my heart starts beating and i start nervous out of blue, not from colleages yet. Then my colleage just looks at me and keep on just talking and smiling as a natural. But, somehow, I feel hot in my face. Loose consious and control, somehow try not to show it, but....
Then the guy just remarks to secretary that my face is red. My mouse is shut. I want to run away or just disappear. .. My redface... well i think tomato is more bright than my face.
The thing if i am alone i could say why i blush? there is no reason. Or say I could laugh back? However, how come.. if you loose your control....
Example 2:
I need to have a deal with another girl in the office. But whenever, i see that girl even if i had not blushed all the day, talking to many people, I blush to death contacting to her. I feel she is inside me and reads my mind. However, i have no any bad intention toward her..
Overall...
I blush almost all the time if one flatters me..
I mostly blush among the acquaitant people rather than new people.
I loose contol and blush to ask a favor from my boss if he/she is strict.
Finally, i blush whenever i pre-feel that i would blush..boosting it worse...
Sometimes, i even cry inside and feel so blue why such a nice person, so talanted, good human natured 'man' has to be so down. If only there would not be such 'illness' he could reach a very high positions in real life and help a lot to people.
Sorry, if i made you bored by my sad story, but i thought it would help some people who have the similar experience..Because during 30 years of my life i have not met any people who could have the problem to my level...