Im a 16 year old girl and for about a year now I've been wondering what my sexual orientation is. Up until that point I had just always assumed I was straight and in Primary School especially (until I was 11) I fancied sooo many boys - that can't change surely can it??
During the first and secon years of high school I also had many crushes, however when I was probably about 13 I remember we have just done RE and were learning about homosexuality and I can remember being in the toilets praying for my orientation to change.
Anyway last year I really fancied my best guy friend and we went out and everything was good. But I did find it weird kissing him and that and teh thought of going any further made me really nervous e.t.c. Anyway we were all at my house one night and the question came up "how far would you go with a member of the same sex?" Everyone else (including me) said "get off" but my boyfriend said he's go "all the way" at first I thought he was joking, turned out he wasn't, I dumped him and now he's bi.
Im just so worried because I don't think I am a lesbian so why is my head telling me I am??
I don't even feel comfotable watching adverts such as the Venus razor one in case I get aroused by the women on it. I lie in bed at night and just try to imagine myself having sex with a man or woman (I don't mast) and sometimes I seem to get aroused by both or sometimes its just the woman which makes me panic even more.
I google "hot men" and look at their pictures but I rarely get any kind of reaction from it :/
Do you think this is hocd??? or not???
I used to want to get married and had my life planned out i.e. was gonna get married by 24, then have kids e.t.c but now when I look into my future I don't se that and it makes me really sad :/
Please help me try to figure out who I am x
During the first and secon years of high school I also had many crushes, however when I was probably about 13 I remember we have just done RE and were learning about homosexuality and I can remember being in the toilets praying for my orientation to change.
Anyway last year I really fancied my best guy friend and we went out and everything was good. But I did find it weird kissing him and that and teh thought of going any further made me really nervous e.t.c. Anyway we were all at my house one night and the question came up "how far would you go with a member of the same sex?" Everyone else (including me) said "get off" but my boyfriend said he's go "all the way" at first I thought he was joking, turned out he wasn't, I dumped him and now he's bi.
Im just so worried because I don't think I am a lesbian so why is my head telling me I am??
I don't even feel comfotable watching adverts such as the Venus razor one in case I get aroused by the women on it. I lie in bed at night and just try to imagine myself having sex with a man or woman (I don't mast) and sometimes I seem to get aroused by both or sometimes its just the woman which makes me panic even more.
I google "hot men" and look at their pictures but I rarely get any kind of reaction from it :/
Do you think this is hocd??? or not???
I used to want to get married and had my life planned out i.e. was gonna get married by 24, then have kids e.t.c but now when I look into my future I don't se that and it makes me really sad :/
Please help me try to figure out who I am x