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I need a tip or advice or anything you can throw at me with my situation. Here goes:
Before around 4 years, I came to realize that I didn't have much confidence, and I was very shy. I looked into it and tried to solve it, and I really did.
Everybody liked me much more in that state, and it was kinda fun to be open with people, tell jokes, and mainly not to care about what other people could think about me. But after a bit while I had some bad encounters with other people. (well, they didn't mean to insult or anything (I assume, we're all friends) but still, the feeling isn't very nice to be open and to get that disrespect).
I decided that there's no person is good enough for me to be open. of course, it's a generalization, but sometimes when people are open with me I really think they're just being annoying and I don't show it of course. Well, if I'll be open maybe I'll be that annoying guy (I don't want to be of course). I do care what people are thinking about me, too much - that's my problem.
Anyways so I neglected my confidence, and let it go away.
I'm writing this about a year later, after meeting some people that makes me want to be open again, but I don't understand how they never get that "disrespect", and if they do, how they don't get offended.
My current state is that this whole scenario made me care more about what people think about me, and I'm even too shy to smile. I'm afraid that people will look at me like I would look at an annoying person.
Thanks for your time and please try to provide me a good tip or advice.
If you have any questions, tell me, please.
I need a tip or advice or anything you can throw at me with my situation. Here goes:
Before around 4 years, I came to realize that I didn't have much confidence, and I was very shy. I looked into it and tried to solve it, and I really did.
Everybody liked me much more in that state, and it was kinda fun to be open with people, tell jokes, and mainly not to care about what other people could think about me. But after a bit while I had some bad encounters with other people. (well, they didn't mean to insult or anything (I assume, we're all friends) but still, the feeling isn't very nice to be open and to get that disrespect).
I decided that there's no person is good enough for me to be open. of course, it's a generalization, but sometimes when people are open with me I really think they're just being annoying and I don't show it of course. Well, if I'll be open maybe I'll be that annoying guy (I don't want to be of course). I do care what people are thinking about me, too much - that's my problem.
Anyways so I neglected my confidence, and let it go away.
I'm writing this about a year later, after meeting some people that makes me want to be open again, but I don't understand how they never get that "disrespect", and if they do, how they don't get offended.
My current state is that this whole scenario made me care more about what people think about me, and I'm even too shy to smile. I'm afraid that people will look at me like I would look at an annoying person.
Thanks for your time and please try to provide me a good tip or advice.
If you have any questions, tell me, please.