Opaline
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I'm having anxiety over something I said on Facebook. Someone I went to high school with who has cerebral palsy posted a status talking about his disability, and I commented saying that he was one of the sweetest people at that school and that I never really saw his disability, he was just an awesome person (and I really meant it). The thing is, his sister is a major biatch. I lived with her (it was a boarding school) and she is opposite to him in every way. Consequently, she and I are not friends on Facebook. I'm afraid she's going to see the comment I left on his status and say something snippy. Not to mention I feel a little ashamed knowing some of my other classmates are going to see the comment, and I'm paranoid about their possible judgments.
There are several things wrong with me being anxious about this: 1) he's an adult with a life of his own, so why can't I be friends with him and not her? She has nothing to do with it; 2) it's unlikely she'd say anything rude if she does see it because it would be awfully immature of her and make her look really bad; 3) what I said was nice! I wasn't being patronizing at all, so I hope it didn't come across that way, I meant it sincerely; 4) I really shouldn't care what other people think; 5) I really shouldn't let what occurs on Facebook affect me so much.
I already made the comment, so I'm leaving it. I refuse to give in to my anxiety, even though it's screaming at me at the moment. However, if someone does make a comment, I fear the excruciating wave of inferiority and shame that will inevitably wash over me. But I'm trying to keep in mind that I am NOT inferior to my former high school classmates. I was a little shy - so what? I have every right to comment on a friend's status saying something positive.
Phew, writing this stuff down here really does make me feel better. It's like I can get it off my chest for the night so I can sleep. I don't fully understand why it helps but it most definitely does.
There are several things wrong with me being anxious about this: 1) he's an adult with a life of his own, so why can't I be friends with him and not her? She has nothing to do with it; 2) it's unlikely she'd say anything rude if she does see it because it would be awfully immature of her and make her look really bad; 3) what I said was nice! I wasn't being patronizing at all, so I hope it didn't come across that way, I meant it sincerely; 4) I really shouldn't care what other people think; 5) I really shouldn't let what occurs on Facebook affect me so much.
I already made the comment, so I'm leaving it. I refuse to give in to my anxiety, even though it's screaming at me at the moment. However, if someone does make a comment, I fear the excruciating wave of inferiority and shame that will inevitably wash over me. But I'm trying to keep in mind that I am NOT inferior to my former high school classmates. I was a little shy - so what? I have every right to comment on a friend's status saying something positive.
Phew, writing this stuff down here really does make me feel better. It's like I can get it off my chest for the night so I can sleep. I don't fully understand why it helps but it most definitely does.
