So five months ago I started at a company. The job is ok. Very stressful, but the pay is ok and the coworkers are nice, and it's nearby. It has a six month trial period, during which I can quit at any time without reason, and they can fire me at any time without reason. So, about three weeks ago, my supervisor approached me, telling me that they had expected a bit more, and that it depends on how I deal with the other projects during the trial period, whether they keep me or not.
And now the job is not so nice anymore. The reason is that this puts a totally new level of stress onto everything. I don't just have to do good work, or satisfy the customers, everything I do I wonder how the supervisor will interpret it. Everything is checked more intensely. It's a whole new level of stress on top of everything else. In addition, it's the constant feeling of having failed, and meeting someone who thinks so each workday.
In a couple of weeks, the trial period ends. Then they'll tell me their decision. I don't even know whether I want to work there anymore. In theory the job is great, but I will then always have the feeling of being double and triple checked and constantly at the verge of being fired. I don't know whether I can work that way.
The alternative is that they don't want me, or that I quit. Then I'd have about five to six months to find a new job (chances are average for that, it's possible, might or might not work), and after that the government would give me just the minimum amount of money to live.
So, while the job itself is great, ironically the situation is bad. I feel very very stressed, I even have nightmares regarding the job.
