Post your random thoughts/feelings etc
- Thread starter Remus
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A-freakin'-men.
I'm almost always inclined to blast the sound on full so that everyone in the other room is aware those moaning sounds they heard just now weren't porn or anything like that.
Worse is when they step in- unable to see the screen, and hear the sounds and then just casually back out again. It's so annoying.
BlueDays
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^I do actually turn the sound up as soon as it gets to talking bit too!! :thumbup:
Only I do it so my neighbors realize it is a general movie on tv, and not me having a fun night in...........by myself. :blushing: :bigsmile:
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
I used to be a good writer, all my teachers commented on it. They said I'd be a famous author someday.
Now I can barely make a simple post on a message-board without having to edit and re-edit everything I say... before finally just saying "to hell with it" and hitting the "back" button.
I'm just a wordy, redundant, ma-ah-fah-ah these days.
Now I can barely make a simple post on a message-board without having to edit and re-edit everything I say... before finally just saying "to hell with it" and hitting the "back" button.
I'm just a wordy, redundant, ma-ah-fah-ah these days.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Same here.
Though, usually ah edit an' re-edit every wird ah say... afore finally goin' "Och, it's no' bad" then hit "post" then realise "Aw shite. there's a few spelling mistake..."
mg:Though, nae o' ma teachers, especially ma English teacher, ever telt me ah was a good writer. Oddly enough, only some folk on here huv telt me that ah hud some talent fur tha auld storytellin', which is much appreciated - even ah didnae think masel' tae be aw that. Humility, ah guess? :idontknow:
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
I am seriously unmotivated with life. Right now I feel anxious knowing that I have to get to work again later. It is so hard to get off this bed. I am so tempted to call sickie but I know that I can't do it.
In the back of my mind I know that I can do so much better. I always have big hopes. At some time I will feel motivated, sleep early and promise to myself that I will be much better tomorrow. And then I'll wake up the following day feeling so lazy, unmotivated, anxious, depressed for no reason at all. Sometimes I get alert and active the whole day only to feel dissatisfied/disappointed at the end of the day even if nothing wrong happened.
I am perfectionist but even perfection makes me feel empty. It's like I'm looking for something lacking. I look at the time and I get more anxious and I think of all the things that I wanted to do and the wasted times I've spent thinking... thinking... thinking.
I always have this feeling that my job is hindering me to be myself... to experience life... but at the same time I need my job to earn money and do things that I wanted to do. It's an endless cycle and the root is anxiety. I'm anxious working with people and I have to do it everyday. Sometimes it's tolerable but most of the time is a torture and I've learned to mute my feelings as a defense mechanism.
At this moment all I wanted to do is stay home and read books... eat a variety of dish... meditate.... or travel somewhere different...
In the back of my mind I know that I can do so much better. I always have big hopes. At some time I will feel motivated, sleep early and promise to myself that I will be much better tomorrow. And then I'll wake up the following day feeling so lazy, unmotivated, anxious, depressed for no reason at all. Sometimes I get alert and active the whole day only to feel dissatisfied/disappointed at the end of the day even if nothing wrong happened.
I am perfectionist but even perfection makes me feel empty. It's like I'm looking for something lacking. I look at the time and I get more anxious and I think of all the things that I wanted to do and the wasted times I've spent thinking... thinking... thinking.
I always have this feeling that my job is hindering me to be myself... to experience life... but at the same time I need my job to earn money and do things that I wanted to do. It's an endless cycle and the root is anxiety. I'm anxious working with people and I have to do it everyday. Sometimes it's tolerable but most of the time is a torture and I've learned to mute my feelings as a defense mechanism.
At this moment all I wanted to do is stay home and read books... eat a variety of dish... meditate.... or travel somewhere different...
relief but what's next ?
I am so incredibly glad that I managed to have the courage to quit my part time job. I felt immense relief after calling and quitting. I know it sounds like nothing, but it is A LOT for me to be assertive and take action like that. I honestly couldn't take it anymore. A lot their bizarre rules had to be illegal anyhow. You were not allowed to wear glasses, so basically if I couldn't wear contacts for some reason or another I'd have to work as if I am legally blind? Freaking seriously, I can't see ANYTHING that way. That was just one of the many strange rules.
It's also not worth being humiliated just to make such a minuscule amount of extra money. The owner literally told me that shy people are useless and that I can't work there if I'm shy and to just "get over it". That is exactly why I quit, hearing that made me SO mad. Shy people are absolutely not useless. She also told me to fix my lips, fix my hair, and that I looked like I was on drugs. On top of that the other girl I was working with multiple times told me I had this weird awkward nervous vibe that made people uncomfortable and that I was getting special treatment for not having been fired by that time. I wanted to punch her in the face, how incredibly rude and insulting. I don't care how true that is, how can you say that to someone? She was bullying me all the hours I was there, and it was not just that. I don't appreciate being treated like some idiot clueless child.
I'm sooooo glad I quit but now I have to find another job. The bullying and insults at another job can't possibly be as bad as this one was though. I just have to remember that. *sigh*.
I am so incredibly glad that I managed to have the courage to quit my part time job. I felt immense relief after calling and quitting. I know it sounds like nothing, but it is A LOT for me to be assertive and take action like that. I honestly couldn't take it anymore. A lot their bizarre rules had to be illegal anyhow. You were not allowed to wear glasses, so basically if I couldn't wear contacts for some reason or another I'd have to work as if I am legally blind? Freaking seriously, I can't see ANYTHING that way. That was just one of the many strange rules.
It's also not worth being humiliated just to make such a minuscule amount of extra money. The owner literally told me that shy people are useless and that I can't work there if I'm shy and to just "get over it". That is exactly why I quit, hearing that made me SO mad. Shy people are absolutely not useless. She also told me to fix my lips, fix my hair, and that I looked like I was on drugs. On top of that the other girl I was working with multiple times told me I had this weird awkward nervous vibe that made people uncomfortable and that I was getting special treatment for not having been fired by that time. I wanted to punch her in the face, how incredibly rude and insulting. I don't care how true that is, how can you say that to someone? She was bullying me all the hours I was there, and it was not just that. I don't appreciate being treated like some idiot clueless child.
I'm sooooo glad I quit but now I have to find another job. The bullying and insults at another job can't possibly be as bad as this one was though. I just have to remember that. *sigh*.
Ithior
Well-known member
That's probably the temperature in my room with the heating on. The heating is only in my room, but if I turn it up the electricity bills will skyrocket, so I have to keep it as low as I can handle.
Have you tried using candles to warm up the room as a less expensive alternative? While it's definitely not a fire place, I find that even a few lit candles can do a very decent job at heating up small rooms.
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
Dayum.
I've got some unfinished work in my place that forces me to keep the heat pumping all night, but it never gets lower than about 65. People don't realize just how cold 57° is inside.
Yeah, it'll keep your drink nice and cold alright.
Luckily it didn't last too long.
PerseverareJasmine
Well-known member
It can get frustrating when I have all these thoughts jumbled up in my head that I'd love to get out, but then I fail when it comes to actually letting myself get the thoughts out and expressing them with words.
Argentum
Well-known member
Nothing has been as disappointing to me so far as a woman in tech as meeting other women in tech.
If I ask a male instructor to explain something, he's a PhD with experience who will explain it and how it is relevant down to minute detail if needed.
If I ask a woman instructor, she says she doesn't know. She doesn't know how to explain something in the course material that we are doing in the lab.
This isn't the first one.
Christ. I'll just go on Google or ask one of the men in the family.
And I think I would invite a lot of hate by criticizing them openly over this, because oh they're so nice their teaching style is so great what are you a female misogynist why do you hate women here nyeh. So what! I don't need a nice, patient instructor. I need an instructor who can tell me what that thingamajig over there is, what can I do with it, in what ways can it potentially destroy everything, who wants me to know how to use it, and why should I care... also can I touch it.
There must be better ladies out there than this for the job. I refuse to accept this as the norm.
Whatever. Just one more name to dodge classes by if I can.
If I ask a male instructor to explain something, he's a PhD with experience who will explain it and how it is relevant down to minute detail if needed.
If I ask a woman instructor, she says she doesn't know. She doesn't know how to explain something in the course material that we are doing in the lab.
This isn't the first one.
Christ. I'll just go on Google or ask one of the men in the family.
And I think I would invite a lot of hate by criticizing them openly over this, because oh they're so nice their teaching style is so great what are you a female misogynist why do you hate women here nyeh. So what! I don't need a nice, patient instructor. I need an instructor who can tell me what that thingamajig over there is, what can I do with it, in what ways can it potentially destroy everything, who wants me to know how to use it, and why should I care... also can I touch it.
There must be better ladies out there than this for the job. I refuse to accept this as the norm.
Whatever. Just one more name to dodge classes by if I can.
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Yes, knowledgeable instructors are the good instructors. Most people seem to think easy grading makes for a good instructor.
Argentum
Well-known member
It was a type of reverse lookup record.
It was literally just a type of reverse lookup record for Windows servers.
I'm terrified I'm going to bring shame on my family this way.
